Forgive me, My Mrs. Choi (S.coups X Reader)

5.1: U

"Eonni,"
"Ah. Finally. Sunhee, you called! So, what's happening now?" I can feel her excitement.
"He's on my bed now."
"And? How is it?!"
"He..."
"WHAT?! JUST TELL ME ALREADY!!!" She shouted on the phone.

I sighed and looked around. No one is around so no one can hear me or see me, but I still feel ashamed. I'm trying to break a marriage hoping to give my child a father. S.coups oppa is a kind man. He accepted me even after the trouble I have caused him years ago. I shouldn't be doing this to him.

"I tried to do what you said, but..."
"WHAT?!"
"He pushed me away and told me I'm not his wife! He told me not to touch him! He said I'll never be good enough to be his wife, to replace Y/N! HOW DO YOU THINK THAT FEELS LIKE?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE REJECTED BY THE PERSON YOU LOVE?!" I shouted at her.
"OF COURSE I DO! HOW DO YOU THINK I ENDED BEING IN JAIL FOR YEARS?! I KNOW VERY WELL HOW IT FEELS! DO YOU STILL NOT UNDERSTAND?! I'M TRYING TO GIVE YOU WHAT I FAILED TO HAVE BECAUSE I'M HIS SISTER!!! I WANT MY NEPHEW'S MOTHER TO BE HAPPY!!!" She shouted back.

I feel myself shaking from anger. I hate myself. I regret giving up Youngsoo and breaking up with him for that guy who is now in jail for drug trafficking. Ha! That was the stupidest decision I made! How stupid of me. And, after that, every decision I made was a failure. I don't want to say having this baby is a mistake because I did love his father, but doing this, it is a big mistake. I feel guilty, but I need to give my child a father. Youngsoo called me a slut. I don't care. If he thinks that way, I'll let him be. I think the same way too now. I feel like a slut. I am a slut.

"I am a failure, unnie. Goodbye." I told her before ending the call.

I went back to my unit and sighed again seeing S.coups on my bed. I'm sorry, Y/N. I need a father for my child. I saw S.coups looking at the wall clock. He's still thinking of his wife.

"Oppa," I called him
"W-why am I here?"
"Hmmm? You said you want to go here so I brought you here."
"Then why am I..."
I walked to him and caressed his face. "You don't remember?"
"Shut up! Just tell me! I don't remember a thing!" He shouted and pushed my hand away. I feel like crying.
"You started undressing and you told me you want to do it with me because you love me." I lied.
"WHAT?! WHAT THE HELL?! I WOULD NEVER SAY THAT BECAUSE I DON'T LOVE YOU!"
"But you said-"
"YES! I DECIDED TO STAY FRIENDS WITH YOU EVEN AFTER THE SCANDAL BECAUSE I PITY YOU! I FELT GUILTY, BUT SUNHEE, I NEVER LOVED YOU MORE THAN JUST A FRIEND! YOU WILL NEVER BE SOMEONE I LOVE MORE THAN Y/N! STOP DREAMING!" I shouted at her.
"But oppa," I reached out for his arm because I need him.
"Don't call me that anymore. Don't call me anything! FROM NOW ON, YOU'RE NOTHING TO ME!"

He quickly wore his clothes and went out. He ran out of the place. He was in a hurry to see his wife. He loves her. Youngsoo loves her. Nobody loves me.

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That has been Sunhee's POV for the first time!~ I want you to understand her situation too so I'll tell you her story in another chapter. I'm not trying to make you pity her, ok? I just want to tell you each side of the story. Bye!~