|You Know You Love Me|✔️

«Chapter 3»

Calum
Tell him the truth? The truth?

They didn't neglect me? They just needed to watch out for Luke. That's okay. I'm okay.

They didn't neglect me, no. They just didn't love me. That's okay. I'm okay.

They could love me again though. I just needed to lose some weight, work out more. That's okay. I'll be okay.

"We don't neglect him! We would never neglect one of you guys!" Ashton yells. It's okay Ashton, I'll be okay.

"You may not realize it but you are. We know you would never intentionally hurt one of us." Luke softens his voice. They're fighting over me? That's not okay.

"We don't...do we?" Ashton asked in a small voice. I take a step towards him and my head spins. I stumble and my head begins to throb. I'm dizzy but it's okay.

All three of them run to catch me as I almost fall. "I'm okay...I'm okay...I'm okay." I repeat to myself.

"Calum? Oh god. What's wrong? Baby what's wrong?" They all ask but it's fine.

"I'm okay. I'm okay."

"Look at him he's so pale." Michael mumbles. He goes to get a wet washcloth to put on my forehead as I lean into Luke? Yea that's Luke. I can't hold myself up anymore. It's to much effort.

"Is he sick?" Ashton asks and helps Luke pull me to the couch. Ashton puts the back of his hand to my forehead and yanks it back quickly.

"He's burning up."

"What do we do? Should we bring him to the hospital?" Luke asks.

"I'm okay...I'm okay."

"Yea baby it's okay. You're okay?" Luke mumbles and wipes my hair from my now sweaty forehead.

"No..." I mumble. And then I break. I start to sob and Luke gives the other two a worried look but pulls me to him and wraps his arms around me. I bury my face in his chest and clutch his shirt. "I'm not. But I promise I will be. Please...I'm so s-sorry. I promise...please..."

"Hey hey...shhh." Luke whispers and rocks me back and forth.

"What are you sorry for?" Ashton asks and rubs my back. I lean back into his touch. He hasn't touched me in so long. I miss them.

"I'm not okay. I-I miss you guys and I'm sorry. I'll be good. I'll be better. I'll lose weight if that's what it t-takes but I'm sorry for not being good enough. I'm s-so sorry...please don't leave me...p-please just love me again." I bury my face in Luke's chest and sob some more as Ashton's hand jerks away from me.

I've ruined it. Just wonderful. I've ruined it and now they'll never love me again.

I gasp and push Luke away as I just manage to turn away from him and throw up all over the floor.

"I'm sorry..."

"Ok we need-" but that's all I hear before I slump back on the couch and close my eyes. I was tired. Tired of all of this. I just wanted them to love me but if that's not what they wanted then fine.

So be it.

But then I felt frantic hands on my body, trying to lift me up. I was to weak to open my eyes, I just wanted to sleep. Why can't they just let me sleep?

But then I felt dizzy again and my head pounded. I squeezed my eyes shut tight before I finally passed out.

-

When I woke up again, I was in what I assume was a hospital bed, with a needle in my arm. I had to look away so I didn't freak out.

"Your awake." I looked up at the boys and shrugged.

"Yea it looks like I am." I mumble.

"How do you feel?" Ashton asked.

How do I feel? How do I feel? That's a good question.

"Physically I feel just peachy but mentally I want to smash my head against a brick wall." I say with a glare sent his way.

He didn't want me. Why didn't he want me?

He flinched and his head fell down in shame.

"I think it's time we talked." I mumbled and turned to Michael who also had his head down in shame.

"Yeah..." Luke spoke up awkwardly.

"I guess I'll just say it then. You guys are smothering Luke, and don't even deny it. You won't even let him eat a fruit without you cutting it up for him like he's a fucking 2 year old. And you...you don't divide your attention equally." I started. They both had guilty looks in their eyes but they stayed silent.

"Actually you guys don't divide it at all. It's always just Luke this and Luke that. Well guess what? You have another soulmate who needs you guys too. But you know what? It's okay. Just because we're soulmates doesn't mean we have to accept each other." I had their full attention now.

"Calum what do you mean?" Michael asked in a small voice.

I sighed and laid back in my bed. "You guys are my friends not just my soulmates but...if I'm honest then I'm done. I'm done crying over you guys every night and questioning my worth every day just because you won't give me the light of day anymore. So I'm done. If you guys don't want this then I don't see the point in trying anymore."

It was dead silent.

That is until Michael shook his head and walked out of the room.

I closed my eyes and heard another click as the door opened and closed. I opened my eyes to see that Ashton wasn't there and it was just Luke left.

So that's it. They've made their decision.

"Are you going to leave me too?" I whisper and Luke shakes his head and sits by my side.

"I'm not leaving you and neither are they." He mumbles.

"Then why did they leave!" I yell. Luke flinches and gives me a sad look.

"Because they don't want us to see them cry."

Long time no see.

Stay lovely🌹

-Olivia