Dear Universe.

Universe

Dear Universe,

I just found myself lost, again. Looking for reasons. How can I even go on? Every time I found something or someone that can make me live like how I wanted to, it always vanish in an instant. I'm lost and I don't know where to go to. I'm a wandering soul who has nothing left. Not that I care, but then I wanted to live. Live not for the sake of surviving but live because I feel alive.

Is that ever going to happen?

I have no idea. Many people already offered their help. But encouragements are not effective against my being. My inner demons are stronger than those cheers I've been receiving. I felt numb. I felt nothing. And again, I wanted to disappear. With this kind of thinking, I felt hopeless. It feels like no one can ever save me from my misery. Misery that only myself knew. The demons are eating me up. I've been confused and dazzled with the things that happened. I just hope someone is out there to give me at least one reason to stop thinking this way. To start living.

And I hope that someone's words will work against the demons living so comfortably in my head.

Much love,
Raze