Dear Universe.

Universe

Dear Universe,

Have you ever felt like you actually does not have a choice?

I never thought I'd feel it, cause I always believed that every person has a choice. Whatever the situation may be. But I was caught up in a situation where it feels like I no longer need to choose. I must do it, whatever it takes.

Oh, Alesso how I wish you took your tito with you. But the problem is, will I go to heaven? Cause I know my soul is already burning in hell.

How do you make out of a situation where you want it to stay; but people actually wants you to let go? But that's not really the question there right? For someone like me who's messed up, I always had a tendency to get affected on what people say. They usually say I'm snob, but I actually listen and just tend to not react at all.

It's hard. People's sentiments getting into my mind. It affects my decisions, principles and my relationships. But how do I actually stop caring about their opinions? How do I actually fight for what I want?

Well, I don't know what's right from wrong. For what I believed is right, is wrong for many others. I'm not usually lost like this, but being so just makes me want to disappear. Demons shouting, whispering and clouding my thoughts.

I can feel that I'm slowly giving in. And I don't know if someone is still out there to save me from this. Because I'm drowning and I'm letting myself drown because I'm just simply tired to deal with this.

Universe, I'll bid you goodbye too. This might be the last entry I'll be making to you. But I thank you, for being an outlet of my darkest thoughts. In the next lifetime, I'll write to you as well.

Finally signing off.

Much love,
Wint
Raze
Nicolo