It Gets Hard Sometimes (Camren)

Chapter 2

"Milllllaaaaa!" Dinah shouted from her room backstage. They were getting ready for another concert in Europe. They were in Netherlands. Camila sighed, hearing Dinah shout for her. She put down her songbook and walked the little distance to her room. Dinah looked up when she walked in. She was lying on the couch, a blanket covering her. Camila raised her eyebrows.

"Please pass me my phone?" She said, "It's over there, in the charger." She pointed to her phone a few feet away from her which was sitting on a table, charging. Camila looked between the phone and her friend.

"You called me here, to pass you your phone, because you were.... too lazy to get it yourself?" Dinah laughed loudly, smiling at her friend.

"I need my rest for the show. And this weather isn't good for my Polynesian skin," Camila smiled and got the phone for her friend. "Thhaankk yoouuuu," she dragged the words, making Camila laugh.

"It's good to see you laugh Chanch," she said, smiling sadly now. She looked at Dinah. It has been one week since her and Laurens fight , and they haven't spoken at all.

She doesn't reply to Dinahs comment, but looked down at her feet instead.

"Hey," Dinah grabbed her hand, "are you okay?" Camila didn't want to, but she felt herself wanting to cry; there was a lump in her throat and her nose stung. Slowly, she shook her head.

"No," her voice cracked, "I just- I didn't mean to-" Dinah pulled her onto the couch in a warm hug. She stroked her hair, trying to call down the smaller girl.

"Shhhhh, shhhh- it's okay," she whispered to her.

"If I knew I would be hated by all of you guys for releasing solo songs, then I never would of done it."

"Mila, we don't-" Dinah was cut off when there other people walked into the room. Camila wiped her eyes and tried to compose herself, but they had already seen her crying. Ally and Normani ran to sit with her, while Lauren just stood in the doorway, staring at Camila. She laughed bitterly.

"It's the anxiety right?" She said before turning around and leaving the room. This just caused Camila to break down again into another fit of tears.

"We don't hate you Mila," Dinah said, continuing their conversation from before.

"Are you sure about that?" Her voice was strained. The other girls looked at her,  exasperated, "because lately, I haven't felt like I'm even in the band anymore. You're all having fun, and I'm just there on the side. The only one who's ever there for me is Ashlee," she said referring to their guitarist.

"No Mila, we didn't mean to-" Normani started, but Camila nodded and put her hand in her shoulder.

"I know," she said before crying again.

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The four girls decided to watch a movie, and decided that Dinah should be the one to go and ask Lauren if she wanted to join them. But, Camila secretly hoped she would decline. The awkwardness would be too much, for all of them, and she knew that.

"Hey," said Dinah from Laurens doorway. Lauren took off her headphones when she heard Dinah.

"Hey," she replied smiling.

"We're gonna watch a movie now, you wanna join us?" Lauren looked at Dinah carefully.

"Will Camila be there?" Dinah nodded, "then no thanks." They both sighed. Dinah sat down on the couch next to Lauren.

"Look, I don't know what your guy's fight is really about, and I don't know your motives behind it okay? And I'm not picking sides here but... you need to chill," Lauren rolled her eyes, "she thinks that you hate her Lauren. She thinks that we all hate her. So all I'm asking from you, is to just calm down a bit, okay? Join us for the movie, please?" Lauren studied Dinah, not knowing if she was serious about Camila thinking they hated her. Finally, she sighed and gave in to watching the movie.

Her and Dinah walked to Dinahs room where the other three sat, the movie already in the bluray. Dinah went and sat inbetween Camila and Normani, leaving the only other open seat next  to Camila. Lauren went and sat in the open seat, but not so close to Camila that they would touch at any point in their movie watching.

God, why did she do things like this? Why was she so paranoid?

They were watching some comedy and Camila was snuggled up with Dinah but soon sat up so she could see properly. She started laughing hysterically at one point and Lauren looked over at her. She looked so happy, she'd forgotton what happy Camila looked like. But with her laughing here, it reminded her of when they were starting out as a band, when everything was simpler.

When everything was simpler and Lauren hadn't messed everything up.
When Camila was happy, and not frowning in nearly every interview.
When Lauren actually took the time to care about Camila.
When Lauren and Camila were friends.