It Gets Hard Sometimes (Camren)

a/n (obviously)

Okay so hey everyone. Sorry that I haven't updated in a while, I'm on holiday and there's not much connection where I am. Right now, I'm sitting on the roof so yeah.

That's my life.

My life is also though, extremely sad and depressing.

Camila leaving or getting kickied out or whatever really sucks. I know that's not very descriptive or anything but right now, it's the only words that come to mind.

I'm upset and angry and confused and depressed and also about a hundred different emotions. I don't know what to believe anymore honestly so for now I'm just sotting back and waiting. I have cried a lot and thought a lot.

Sometimes I'll just be sitting, doing anything and then I'll think of Fifth Harmony and how it used to be and how it's going to be and I just get so depressed that I have to stop for a moment and just sit there to regain my whole existence.

I do have an opinion on it and it's very long so I won't bore you with it but just say that I believe Camz but then I also believe the girls but I'm a bit sketchy about it both.

I do think that the post was written by management and that they made the girls post it on all their accounts because theure mother fucking douchebags. But it can't all be lies.

Some of what Camila said I also believe and I do think that that post was written by her. It's hard to believe that Camila would do some of those things in the Fifth Harmony accounts post, but a don't know.

Remember: we don't know what happens behind closed doors.

And that's why I don't want to really believe anything, even though it's hard with them not having updated us on anything or given us an actual broadcast or something.

All in all though, I am heartbroken.

I will however, continue my story.

BUT

I will be changing it a bit to how I originally wanted the story to go. I hope it will work out as well as I wished, but if not, oh well I'm sorry. I also hope that I'll have the strength to write this book without bursting into tears because whenever I've thought of Camren in the past few days, I have burst into tears so...

No more Camren moments. Oh my goodness in crying just writing this.

Okay well that's it from me, I should get off this roof and go cry myself to sleep haha okay sorry I haven't gotten much sleep. I have way too much on my mind.

By the way, I'll also be changing the book to first person. Okay bye everyone, and remember we're in this together ❤