I'm Scared to Death There May Not Be Another One Like This [Niklaus Mikaelson]

Confusing, kinda happy medium?

I cried even harder than before and the tears just kept coming and coming. It really seemed like there was no stopping. I cried because all the frustration and pain I had from years of running away from what felt natural to me, being with Niklaus, has finally taken it's toll. Being this close to him after depriving myself of his very presence is so overwhelming. I cried because I have all these confused feelings within me. I cried because hearing all those things that Esther said has brought meaning to our life, who we are together, what we mean together. I cried because it's getting harder to run away from him. I cried because I am stuck in this place where I hate him for what he's done lifetimes ago, it seemed, but everyday I am constantly tortured by what he did. Looking at him brings back memories of what he did, but at the same time, looking at him and being with him is what completes me. I am whole when I'm with him, but he was also the one who broke me all those years ago. So I cried and I let everything out because I had been feeling like a dam of emotions, and now finally the dam has burst and there's no stopping her.

“You know you are the only one I’ve ever loved. The only one I will love in what is to be an infinite lifetime ahead of us. I never stopped loving you and I will not stop now, nor tomorrow, or the day after that, or even next week, for that matter, or 6 months past or decades or centuries after that,” I just kept sobbing onto his white tuxedo and I hugged him tighter. I inhaled his scent, which has lingered on my skin all these years we were apart. He feels like home to me and how I craved to be home after all these years. He softly held onto the back of my neck and kissed my forehead.

The exterior shell I had intricately built to keep him out is slowly chipping away. I looked up and touched his face, he was crying silent tears and out of nowhere, he kissed me. The kiss was so passionate; it ignited all the longing between us. All the unspoken words and all the actions that were kept at bay were translated into that kiss. He cupped my face with his left hand and held onto the back of my neck with his right, the hand that was previously grasping Kol's heart, so it was drenched in blood. I ran my fingers through his hair and not once did we break the kiss. We were kissing passionately for what felt only like seconds when I broke the kiss. I was breathless and flushed, our foreheads were touching and we were both smiling, despite the slow tears that were still falling “I think we should clean up and head outside or Esther will for sure kill us both” I managed to jokingly say.

“But I don’t want to go outside. I just want to stay here and kiss you my love” Niklaus said, a gorgeous smile on his lips and a twinkle in his eyes. He slowly wiped the tears away from my face and in the place of the tears, he planted kisses, loving, soft, small kisses.

“Seriously Nik” I smiled while biting my bottom lip. “Now when you do little things like that, I can’t think straight, in fact, I can't think of anything else besides kissing you, and I certainly do not want to go to a stupid dance that we've both been to hundreds of times now since my mother is such a huge fan of it.” He trailed kisses all along my jaw line and down to my collarbone. This action sent the most pleasurable sensation up and down my body. He went up to my neck and sucked a little and I let out a small moan to which he smiled in response. A smile I felt on the skin of my neck. I pressed my lips together and mustered up all my resistance and pushed him away.

“We really need to clean up now,” I said while walking towards Rebekah’s bathroom. Niklaus grabbed me by my waist and we were making out all the way towards Rebekah’s bathroom, we were so into kissing each other that we didn’t notice that Rebekah was in the bathroom until she coughed.

Nik and I slowly broke apart and looked towards the direction of the cough. We were both so flushed and out of breath; Rebekah was fighting the urge to smile so instead, she stifled a laugh “Well that escalated quickly and in the most positive way we could all have hoped for; mother will be pleased. But thank you so much to the two of you, I now have 6 brand new pairs of Jimmy Choos. I bet with Elijah that you two would be kissing before the night is over and I won.” She winked at both of us “Now mother says in 10 minutes you two had better be out there on the grand hall. Ta-ta” she smirked and walked past us. I hugged Nik and we just swayed for a little bit. “Where do we go from here my love?” he whispered, looking at me intently.