Phan One Shots

Expectations

Phil's POV
I'm trying to understand why I ever let you in my life; why I let you get close to me.

I was told that you were no good for me, or to anyone as a matter of fact.

I guess I let your good looks and seductive personality get the best of me.

You approached me at a party with glimmering eyes that can make anyone fall in love instantly.

Your straightened hair was starting to curl up because of the humidity in the house.

You asked me if I wanted to dance.

Of course I couldn't deny a charming smile like yours.

We danced for what seemed like an eternity.

At the end of the night you told me you wanted to see me again.

That I was so appealing to you and that you wanted to get to know me better.

I gave you my number and said my farewells.

When we started talking and hanging out more often, it was becoming serious.

I met up with my closest friends for lunch and once I brought up your name everyone's smile seemed to fade.

They told me you were known to use people and drop them once you got what you wanted.

Me being the ignorant person that I am, pushed those words aside and continued on my relationship with you.

I realized I was in love with you.

I mean, who wouldn't?

You treated me so kindly and with so much love.

You were filled with so much love and passion, I couldn't believe the things people said about you.

It just didn't add up.

One day you brought up sex.

You said that we were ready for this step.

That our relationship was strong enough for it.

I was still unsure if I was ready for it.

I told you I was a virgin and that I wasn't ready yet but you somehow managed to convince me otherwise.

We had sex.

It was full of love and need. The way your hands trailed around body.
The way your touch left a burning sensation on my delicate skin.
The way you kissed me all over my neck and chest; leaving love bites behind.
The way you held me so gently as if I was to break upon your touch.

Afterwards I laid in your arms.

You were playing around with my hair while I was drawing circles on your soft hand with my finger.

I told you I loved you for the first time.

I meant it.

You stiffened and let your grasp from me.

You turned around, your back facing me, and turned off the lights and went to bed.

I stayed up crying that night. I couldn't believe I let those dangerous words slip out of my mouth so carelessly.

I was also very confused.

Confused as to why you had such a strong reaction to it.

I eventually went to bed. I didn't want to stay up all night contemplating this moment.

The next few days seemed pretty off.

I noticed you were a little distant with me.

You seemed very annoyed.

After a few more days I had enough with the late nights thinking about us.

I went up to you and addressed the situation.

You were angry by the fact that I brought it up.

I didn't let you slip away this time.

I confronted you until you told me what I needed to hear.

It wasn't necessarily what I wanted.

"I used you ok! I just wanted to get in your pants, just like your friends said I would. You mean nothing to me. You were just a toy that I would have fun with and eventually lose interest in and go on and find a new one."

I understood and respected your decision.

I didn't want to argue with someone who obviously didn't care and wasn't going to change their mind.

You went back to your home after we fought.

I didn't say goodbye.

I guess it was for the best.

I'm not one to take goodbyes very well.

I know I seem fine but I'm completely broken.

I wish I would've listened to my friends in the first place.

Maybe I wouldn't feel so dirty and worn out right now.

Because of you I can't let anyone in.

I'm scared they're all going to do the same again.

I haven't had a relationship since you left.

I don't even give out my number or accept a drink when I'm out with my friends.

I hope I can get over this soon. It's pretty tiring to be up and feeling sorry for yourself.

I hope I met your expectations.

(A/n I wrote this at 12am so I'm sorry if it's bad??
If you want one from Dan's POV please ask and I'll write it. Thank you for reading.)