Phan One Shots

Compass

✻Compass✻

Lyrics:
I used to spend my nights praying for air in my bloodstream
Now I long to feel your breath pass throughout my arteries

Story:

Dan's POV

I have never been an affectionate person. I wasn't one to say I love you often and make every situation romantic.

One day while I was out Christmas shopping I met Phil. My first impression of him was that he was so gorgeous. He was really tall and pale. His skin contrasted with his dark black hair.

We both accidentally reached out for the same shirt and our hands touched. We both blushed madly after we laid eyes on each other. On that day we exchanged numbers and started taking. We had so much in common and we slowly fell in love. We moved in together after a couple of months.

One of the problems was that Phil loved to be romantic. Always saying I love you, kissing me, cuddling me, and showing up every so often with a bouquet of flowers and maltesers in his hands.

I don't know why I let his affection get to me. I guess I wasn't used to it at all. I felt like I was suffocating with him and I just wanted to breathe.

Phil noticed how I was acting. He thought I didn't love him anymore. I rarely told him that I loved him. That was enough to put him off the edge.

One night while I was in my room Phil made his way over. I could hear him pacing in his room right across from mine.

*knock knock*

"Come in!" He walked in with a sad expression.

"Hey, Phil. What's up?"

"Dan..I've been thinking." He paused. "I think we need to take a break." My heart mentally felt like it stopped.

"What? Why?" I asked quickly.

"Dan, I'm so madly in love with you but I get the feeling that you don't love me. I think we should take a break, especially you. I want you to think about your feelings. I want you to tell me you love me like I do. I know, I sound needy. Part of it is true. I need to know that you love me. That I'm not wasting my time with someone who doesn't care about me like I do with them."

"But I do love you." I mumbled. I couldn't bring myself to say it louder as much as I wanted to.

"Dan, we're grown adults! You can express your feelings! This isn't an elementary school relationship when you giggle at the word love!" Phil was pretty upset about this whole situation. I stayed quiet.

"Alright then." Phil walked out of my room. After a couple of minutes I heard him in his room making a lot of noise. I went over to check it out.

When I walked in I was devastated with what I saw.

Phil was packing his stuff.

"Phil? What are you doing?" I asked concerned. I was terrified about what he was going to say.

"I'm going over to my parents'." He said sternly.

"What? Why?" He stopped packing and looked at me as if he was going to kill me.

"Were you not paying attention to the conversation we just had? I want you to take some time and thinking about us, ok? Think about your feelings and how to express them. I don't necessarily need you to say "I love you" for me to know. I just want you to show me." He walked over to me and was about to hug me before he stopped himself and took a look at me. I nodded to tell him it was fine and he pulled me into a tight hug.

"I'm not breaking up with you. I just want you to think, ok?"

"Ok." He gave me a kiss on my forehead and walked out.

It has been two weeks since he left. He was coming back today.

While he was gone I thought about us. I missed him so much. I didn't think I needed all of his affection until he left. I missed him being clingy and showing and telling me that he cared. I wanted him to be all up on me like he was before. I now know how it feels like.

I wanted to show him that I loved him. I cooked his favorite dinner. I also baked some of his favorite treats. I bought him some flowers and an anime box set that he has been wanting for some time.

I fixed up the table and made it look really nice and fancy for us. I wanted to show him that I thought this through.

After a couple of minutes I heard the door open and close.

"Dan! I'm home!" He called out.

"I'm in the lounge!" I yelled back. He walked in and looked really surprised. I could tell that he was very happy.

"Dan.." He whispered. Tears threatening to spill.

"Phil.." I paused and took a hold of his hand. "I love you so much. I'm so sorry I never show you or tell you how much I appreciate and love you. I didn't realize how much I needed you with me until you left. Please forgive me. I promise that things are going to change between us. I will show you and tell you how much I loved you." Phil was now crying and so was I.

"I love you so much, Dan." He pulled me into a tight hug. I pulled him just as tight. It had been a long and painful two weeks.

I cupped Phil's cheeks and stared into his eyes. I pulled us closer and closed the gap between us. This had been one of our best kisses in a long time.

We continued on with our night. We ate dinner and talked about how our weeks went and how much we missed each other.

Everything was going to be much better now.

(A/n I write all of these in a spam of one hour so I really apologize if they're not always good.)