Phan One Shots

My World In Black and White

A world in black and white.
From the day that you're born, all you see is black and white.
In order to see in color, you have to find your soulmate first.
For some people it takes months, but for others it can take years.

The saddest thing I can think of is people dying without finding their soulmate.
It's sad because they never had the chance to see color.
I'm scared of dying.
I'm scared of never experiencing the sight of color.

I often hear people talking about the color teal.
They say it's a mix of green and blue; whatever those are.

I've been told that I have lovely brown eyes that turn a soft hazel shade in direct sun light.
I want to see what others see.
To me, everyone just has different shades of black eyes.

I left for university when I was at the age of 18.
I moved into the dorms with two other guys names Chris and Pj.
Those two were soulmates.
I remember that day so clearly.

I was the only one in the dorm. I was waiting for my roommates to arrive. While I was unpacking a tall guy with straight light black hair arrived. He introduced himself as Chris.
Chris was such a nice person. He was extremely funny and he knew how to cheer me up in very tough situations.
We instantly became good friends.

Him and I started fixing around the dorm when we heard the sudden sound of a door closing. I was the first one to great our new roommate. This guy's name was Pj. He was very tall and skinny with a darker shade of black curly hair.

Pj here was the calmest of us three. He was one of the most creative people I have ever gotten the chance to meet. He loved films. He had such an amazing future planned out ahead of him. I wished I was as amazing as he was.

We were talking for a bit when Chris came out of the bathroom. Pj and Chris locked eyes and were dumbfounded. They didn't remove their eyes from each until I realized what was happening right before my eyes. I couldn't look away.

I was both jealous and very excited about their encounter. I had never seen this happen with my own eyes.

It was tough sharing a dorm with two soulmates. You just felt like a third wheel who was invading their privacy.

I really enjoyed seeing their relationship. They were so in love with each other that it made me long for my soulmate. I didn't know how much I could take it anymore.I wanted to see colors.
I wanted to be in love.

One day on a Friday night, Chris asked me if I could leave the house for the night.
It was his and Pj's two year anniversary and he had something special planned out for him.
I immediately grabbed a jacket and my car keys and headed out.

I went through the busy streets of London to clear up my mind a bit. It was such a busy day and there were people everywhere.

I sat at a table outside of a small restaurant while sipping on some coffee. I was looking around when suddenly color came to sight.

I was so shocked and excited but I had no idea who my soulmate was. The streets were crowded and I wasn't paying attention to who I was making eye contact with.

I quickly grabbed my stuff and stood up from my chair.
I needed to find them.

I was swallowed by the ocean of people around me. I was starting to freak out internally. I couldn't let them leave from my reach. I was too desperate to find them.

My vision started to fog up and fade back into black and white.
They were leaving.

I ran towards an open space and searched around for anyone else who would possibly be looking for someone.

The colors started to fade in a bit more. I was gaining hope once again.

While I took a quick glance behind me I roughly bumped into someone in front of me.

Our eyes locked and my sight was filled with vibrant colors.

Before me stood a tall man with sleek black hair. He was as pale as snow which contrasted so well with his beautiful bluey-green eyes.

"Did you see colors?" Asked the man.

"Yes, I did."

We stared at each other really confused. He looked a bit older than me. I think what we were more interested about was the fact that we were both guys. We didn't really think about the gender of out soulmate so it came as a surprise.

He invited me over to his house to talk about the situation.

Needless to say we clicked instantly. We stayed up until 2am talking about ourselves and our lives before we met.

We found out that he was four years older than me but we didn't care much about it. We were just so happy to have found each other.

I was thankful that he had let me stay the night since I was previously thrown out by Chris.

Phil and I had so much fun together. We went on so many dates and traveled the world together.

I never new happiness until I met him.

One night Phil and I were in the kitchen cooking when we realized we didn't have an important ingredient. He suggested going to the store to pick it up. I agreed and kissed him goodbye.
He told me that he loved me and that he would be back in a bit.

While I was setting up the table, my vision started to blur up. I was slightly confused and a bit worried. Suddenly, my whole vision went monochrome. I started to panic and reached out for my phone to call Phil. It took so many tries until someone finally picked up.

"Phil? Where are you?" I was shaking at this point.

"I'm sorry."
That wasn't Phil.

You see, what people forget to keep in mind, because of the love that blurred your thoughts, is that when your soulmate dies, you lose your colorful sight. There is absolutely no possible way to regain your sight again. You only receive one soulmate for your entire life.

Phil was the best thing that ever happened to me. He gave me so much purpose in life.

I didn't want to live a life without him.

I won't live a life without him.

- Dan's Suicide Note
(My World In Black And White)