Living With My Ex Who Hates Me

All Your Fault

(Gabi's POV)
The news was broken to me yesterday, almost immediately after it happened. I have been locked in my room since, not able to shut my eyes, not able to get up, barely able to breathe. My best friend who went dark side is dead. My boyfriend who I was gonna break up with is dead. DEAD. I thought I felt guilty before, but knowing he died still thinking I loved him, that kills. I feel nothing inside as of now. A bitter emptiness.
Jack could've gotten help. He could've gotten better. I could've had my best friend back. I never gave up on him. I was honestly hoping he would just get help then be the regular Jack Barnett again.
Thinking of Jack, I pull the envelope with my name on it out from where I found it in my room after I heard the news.

Dear Gabi,
I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. It's all my fault. If I hadn't let my family move into your house, none of this would've happened.
Yes, I blamed you partially for breaking my heart, but deep down, I know it wasn't your fault. Alex was truly responsible for this. He must pay.
Just know, what I'm about to do is for you. I will always love you. We were soulmates, but that was taken away from us by Alex. I will see you in the afterlife if there is one.
Tell my family, especially my mother, that I truly did love them. Remember, I love you.
Goodbye,
Jack.

The tears fall more as I read it for the tenth time. If I could've found this before he left, I could've prevented this.
I don't know what to think of it. The only real feeling I have as if now to this whole situation is guilt. Guilt that I didn't tell Alex, guilt that I couldn't help, led alone save Jack.
Earlier this morning, the Barnetts went out and Jack was cremated.
Alex has his funeral at 3 and it's 2:30. I just can't bring myself to go. Instead, I fall back on my bed, letter in hand, too many thoughts in my head.
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(Kyndel's POV)
I hold the ashes of my fallen brother, wishing I could just see him one more time. Wishing I could at least say goodbye. He was only 15. He was just starting high school. Hell he was just starting life! He's actually gone. My baby brother is gone. I could've saved him. I should've spoken up the day he mentioned Baileigh and all that stuff about revenge. I can't help but to feel that this is my fault. I could've saved him.

The trial was closed due to the fact that there is nobody left to be tried.

My breaths come in and out heavily, tears streaking my face. I keep thinking about the sight of my brother with a pool of blood surrounding him, a bullet in his mouth, as well as a matching bullet in his ex-best friend. Alex. Alex who he was so close with. Alex, who he trusted with his life. Alex, who broke him along with Gabi. Gabi, if it wasn't for her, he would still be alive and fine. My face turns red with anger. I exit my room and enter hers.
I find her in her bed, motionless, pale, bathing in her own tears.
"Why are you crying?" I ask.

"Kyndel get out." She says softly, in a broken up voice, not turning away from the wall.

"No answer! You have no right to be crying! He was my brother. I loved him. You took him from me when you broke his delicate heart. He killed someone and himself because of you and another guy screwing infront of him basically when you knew how he felt! You killed my brother!" I yell at her.
She turns around.

"I killed him?! I killed him?! You think you are the only one suffering here!? He was my best friend! Forget Baileigh, Jack was my best friend! He helped me through everything! He was always there for me! I loved Jack!" She yells back at me.

"If you loved him you wouldn't have been with his best guy friend!" I yell back.

"Kyndel. He was a rebound. I never loved Alex. I don't know why I was with him in the first place. Oh wait yes I do, YOU TOLD ME TO. I wasn't gonna be with him until YOU suggested it. You said it was ok. Kyndel, you are the monster here. If you hadn't been such a jerk after the break up, this all wouldn't have happened!!" She yells at me. Tears streak both of our faces.
Suddenly, our moms rush into her room.

"Both of you shut up! It is not anyone's fault!! You two do not need to be blaming each other for this!" Her mom screams as she me up from Gabi's bed.

"Especially you Kyndel! You are supposed to be sucking it up and at least acting nice to Gabi after what shit you pulled!" My mom yells at me. I clenches my fists and turn around.
I leave with my mom guiding me to my room. A long talk awaits us as well as Gabi and her mom.