Six Feet Under the Stars (Jalex Fanfic)

I'll Drop a Line (Ch. 20)

ALEX

I stayed outside with Jack in my arms for awhile. It was a warm night, not too humid or anything. I could've slept out there if I really wanted to. Everything was okay. It was actually a perfect night. Nothing horrible had happened and Jack was happy, for the most part.

It got kind of lonely not being near other bands on the tour. I missed the big bus parties at night and the sweaty hot bodies during the day. Jack missed it, too. Every so often I would hear him hum a song from our setlist or tweet fans telling them how much he missed them. It was sweet of him. I knew if anything, though, we needed to get back on tour. We'd spend a few more days here and then Flyzik was free to leave the hospital.

Jack mumbled words I couldn't understand as I stood up, dragging him up with me. I heard a chuckle from behind and saw Rian walking over to help me with Jack.

"How are you two holding up?" Rian asked as we carried the sleeping Jack inside. I smiled at the thought that people referenced Jack and I like an official "two" or couple. It was nice. We didn't really get referenced like that when we were faking.

"Jack's better and I'm... I'm just good at doing a fake smile for him." I said with a shrug as we tucked Jack into his bunk, underneath his Adventure Time blankets. He was so cute as he cuddled into the pillows, gripping at the blankets. Jack was usually a heavy sleeper, while I was not.

"I'm always here, if you need me. Same with Zack, Vinny, Danny..." Rian said as we walked to the back lounge, grabbing beers on the way. I didn't want to go to sleep. My head was spinning and I had too many thoughts to even comprehend. The fact that Rian and I were drinking beer wouldn't help my case. It would calm my nerves, but it wouldn't calm the thoughts that were running wild.

I nodded at Rian as we sat on the couch. The Breakfast Club was playing on the tv and I couldn't help but smile. This movie always seemed to reflect anyone's problems at the time you had them. Whether it be no friends, getting judged, or even just being in a bad situation that you didn't know how to handle. It was always interesting, because I loved to watch it over and over, but imagine it in the different character's point of views. Were they scared? Were they happy? Did they not even care at all? It was an interesting concept that I loved about the whole storyline.

I didn't realize that it was midnight until the movie ended. Rian and I had managed to split a six pack of beers, finishing them all. I was buzzed, but not even close to drunk. I'd learned how to manage my alcohol over the years. I learned from hangover after hangover, a brutal process typically. Headaches every morning aren't joyful.

Hangovers were like mistakes. Well, technically, they were mistakes. Drinking too much is a mistake on anyone's part who participated in the drinking. My theory, though, was that everytime you get a hangover, that is a consequence from drinking over the certain amount. Well, that's the same with mistakes. You know you are doing something wrong, but you do it anyways, and you get a consequence. The idea goes hand in hand with itself.

I had been feeling recently that I had not been making many mistakes recently. That can be good, but I didn't know what to do. I loved being the good guy and I needed to be for Jack during this time, but I wanted to go do something. I hadn't partied recently and this was the first time I had had alcohol in days. I missed touring, because there was no right or wrong. I missed the crowds and dancing on stage and doing what I loved for the people that I needed to thank my life for. I needed to go back on tour and I felt like I would make it happen somehow. Alex Gaskarth doesn't give up.

"Come on, Gaskarth. I know you want to tour and all, but Flyzik is in the hospital. There isn't much we can do." Rian said after awhile of silence. I didn't even realize I was talking out loud. I grinned and looked at the guy next to me. Punching him in the arm, I stood up.

"We'll be touring soon. I can feel it." I said with a grin, running my hand through my hot pink hair. I just knew we would tour soon. Flyzik would be okay. At first, I didn't think he would be. I highly doubted that he would be. Now, though, after visiting him for hours, I felt like he would be okay. We couldn't lose our manager. He was the best manager in the business.

"Go to sleep, bro. You had a long day." Rian said to me, pushing me towards my bunk. I nodded and hopped into my bunk with a grin. I felt good. I felt like life wasn't on pause anymore and that everything would be good. I knew this feeling and before I could stop myself, I opened my notebook that was always under my pillow. I had inspiration.

"Reckless and the Brave..." I said under my breath as I wrote it down in black ink. This was going to be good.

so i wrote this chapter at night time and those were actually just my thoughts but it fit well into the story. ily all and please vote and comment!