Life? Life.

What is my purpose?

They said, "life is simple"
"But it's never easy."
I know that I tend to complicate things
Or create my own disaster
And be my own catastrophe...
But I never wanted to live in hell,
No, never.

I never wanted to inflict self-harm,
I never wanted to suck at relationships,
I never wanted to treat myself so badly,
I never wanted to be so lonely,
I never wanted to be so chaotic;
I never wanted those things.

They said, "life is fair,"
"Because it is unfair to everyone."
Is it really?
Is it unfair to everyone?
Because it seems like it's only unfair to me.
Oh this is such a long life,
I've got a long way to go.

I never wanted to live so troublesome,
I never wanted to live so useless,
I never wanted to drag myself down,
I never wanted to compare my life with anyone else's,
I never wanted to waste my time;
I never wanted those things.

I don't know what to do.
Who shall I call for help?
Can anyone carry this burden with me?
I don't know what to say.
What shall I do with my life?
Can anyone please say the purpose of my existence?