Life? Life.

Caught Myself (Part 2)

This is for the one who keeps giving chances to that one person and ended up destroying herself in the whole process.

Hmm, how clear the nightsky

Is tonight?

Flawless as always.

Just like his undeniable charm,

His laugh,

His walk,

His ok---

He was flawless,

Or so I thought.

There's so many stars tonight

I wonder what constellation

Is his favorite

From these;

I can't stop staring

Even when instead of

Focusing on healing

I'm choosing on

Hurting myself again.

I miss it all:

The way he looks at me,

The way he messily eat his food,

The way he touches me,

The way he makes me smile,

The way he lends me his sweater,

The way he gives me enlightenment,

The way he shows me a new photo

Of a planet

Or a constellation---

Heck even

The universe.

But I have to stop,

I must stop missing him,

Because I heard it all.

All the excuses from:

"I wasn't ready", "I was just goofing around",

Down to all the lies:

"She was just a friend", "I love you"

It's not funny for how he broke me

To prove

That he loves me.

But I, the biggest fool of all,

Forgave him every single time.

And will be the biggest loser of all,

For I will still forgive him

Even now.

He broke me,

And I'm breaking myself even more.