Missing A Twin

Chapter 9 : Nightmares and scholarships

Chapter 9

Middle of the night...

Riker POV

I could hear the shooter getting closer and closer. I was all alone in the classroom. I'd locked the door, but I knew he was breaking down all the doors with no problem at all. I felt doomed.

I heard a loud bang, and I got to my feet. He's so close.

I was shaking inside, trying to mentally prepare myself to fight. 

I inched over to the door, deciding I'd try to make a run for it if he came in here. 

I could hear him shooting. The sounds were getting closer and closer.

The door suddenly flew open right next to me, and I screamed.

Jeff POV

I woke up, hearing a scream. For a second, I thought I screamed. But then I realized it was Riker.

The light went on, and I saw Nick, who looked half asleep. And I saw Riker, who was sitting up next to me, and he looked terrified.

"S-sorry," Riker stuttered.

He looked embarrassed but also sort of scared.

"Nightmare?" I asked.

"Yeah..."

"I hate those," I whispered.

"Can I shut off the light?" Nick asked.

Riker nodded.

I laid down next to Riker again. It felt like there was a lot of heat coming off of his body, but he just woke up from a nightmare, so...

I was almost back to sleep when Riker woke me up again. I heard him get out of bed, and shut the bathroom door. I heard him throwing up. I got out of bed, and went into the bathroom. I sat down beside him, and started rubbing his back.

By the time Riker was finished, he was crying. And he looked absolutely exhausted.

"Are you alright?" I asked, quietly.

"I just wish I wasn't so freaked out from the shooting... That's why I threw up. My nightmare was about the shooting. Except I was all alone in the classroom, and there was no way out. I just heard the bullets getting closer and closer and closer until the door slammed open. And I woke up."

"And you threw up?"

"I get myself too worked up about it. And I make myself sick."

"Oh... Do you want to go back to sleep?"

"I don't know if I can... I feel so scared inside right now. And the feeling won't go away."

I could tell he was panicking a little inside. I've been scared enough times to notice little things about how someone acts when they're scared.

"Come on. Let's go back to bed, ok? I'm cold."

I took Riker back to bed. This time it was him that curled up. Finally he's not hiding his emotions from me. He finally trusts me enough to tell me so I can help him. I suppose the same goes for me. I don't want him to know what Sebastian did to me, but I ended up telling him anyways...

Morning...

Jeff POV

When I woke up, Riker was already awake. He was sitting up with his knees pulled to his chest.

"Did you get any sleep?" I asked.

"No..."

"That sucks..."

"I don't want to go back home... If I can't even sleep here, I doubt I can sleep back home. Every day it just gets worse! I don't know what to do!"

"Riker, relax. I know how it feels to be absolutely terrified. It gets easier."

"That's what Rydel said, but every day it gets worse! Not easier!"

"I know, Riker... You just need to distract yourself. If you keep focusing on it, it'll get worse. You need to distract yourself."

"How!?"

"I don't know. That's for you to figure out."

Riker sighed.

"I wish I could just transfer here too."

"Did you ask mom and dad?"

"No. But I already know they're going to say no."

"Well... Nick and I were talking... Maybe there's like a financial aid thing or a scholarship. You should go talk to someone before you leave."

"Wouldn't I have to get it before the year started?"

"I don't know... There's no harm in asking."

"Fine..."

"Let's go get breakfast, ok?"

"Ok. Are you going to wake up Nick?"

"Yes."

"Do I need to change out of pajamas?"

"Nope."

I woke Nick up, and then the 3 of us walked down to the cafeteria together. I was slightly nervous about seeing Sebastian, but hopefully all of that is over now.

Later...

Riker POV

After breakfast, I'd taken a nap in Jeff's bed. I barely got any sleep last night. And I'd had another nightmare while taking a nap, but I didn't scream. I just sat bolt upright, and felt like I was scared to death. I actually scared Nick and Jeff because I guess I sort of gasped. But... I'm ok...

The 3 of us were currently walking down to the office so I could ask about financial aid or scholarships. 

Nick waited outside for us. Jeff and I went into this lady's office.

"Hi um... My name is Riker. My brother goes to school here. I don't. But I would like to. And I was wondering if there were any financial aid programs or scholarships because my family can barely pay for Jeff to go here," I said, nervously.

"Well... You would have to see if you would qualify for the financial aid. But I can give you the papers, and you can talk to your parents about it. We only have one scholarship at the moment. You don't by any chance sing, do you?"

"Why?"

"If you're a good singer, you could get a music scholarship. You would have to agree to some conditions though."

"Like what?"

"You would have to be in the glee club, and compete in their competitions. We lost a lot of people last year because they graduated. So we're trying to get more singers."

"Well I sing! Are there papers or anything?"

"Yes. I can print them out for you if you want."

"Yes, please. When I get back home, I can have my parents look at it and everything."

The lady printed out the papers for me, and we left.

"Any luck?" Nick asked.

"Riker's going to try to get a music scholarship and join the Warblers!" Jeff said.

"Oh. That's awesome!"

The 3 of us went back to the bedroom.

A/N : I'm still having some rough days. I can't really get my brain to focus on anything. I can tell something's really getting to me when I can't even type fanfiction. This is practically my life. But I had some prewritten chapters, so I'm uploading these for now... Sorry in advance for a lack of updates...