My First Crush

Chapter 10: Hell part 1

Cece´s POV

“I said I´m fine!” I shouted to my dad and run up the stair.

After spending all morning in the police station (which I was dragged too) I was sick and tired of everyone. I get that they were worried but I had told the police everything! If that was not the worst part, when I arrived home the place was polluted with the preens. My father quickly casted everyone away but everything was still annoying. Don´t get me wrong, when the kidnapers let me go and I saw my family I was scared to death and hugged them tightly but as the day progressed, my mood changed.

It all started with the cops questions that made me revive everything that happened since last morning, the words were practically forced out of my mouth and that´s when the pain started. I refused to talk about what happened, but I was obliged by everyone including my parents, so I was put in a room with a psychologist as if I was a mad person, because I knew that cops and my parents where hearing what I was telling her.

I also refused to cry, I was so sick of hiding the pain I held since I was beaten up and touched. Luckily  there were not visible marks in my body, yet. To make everything easier to everybody I told them nothing happened, that I was just kept in a room with my eyes covered. Yet, things were not that way, and as every time I cried they would punch me it was now easy to control the tears in front of everyone. I know it was less than a day, but I felt like a lifetime passed by me, and I just couldn´t stop the images from passing in my head, I couldn´t rub them out, I couldn´t make my pain leave! 

My dad and my mum where harassing me with questions and hugs, and I just didn´t know how much time could I resist the poker face I adopted, so I decided to be mean, and so they would leave me alone.

“Cece” I heard a knock on my bedroom´s door and Nate´s voice calling for me. Quickly think… I jumped into bed and close my eyes as he was opening the door, but at the time he was in I was already pretending to be fast asleep. That was enough for him to leave.

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I saw how the light in the house went off as everybody went to bed. I saw how the moon started to go away. I saw how sun´s light started invading my room, yet the only thing I did was let out quite sobs all the night, all the miserable night.

I felt like a machine had possessed by body, my mind. The real me just wanted to cry so this devilish robot in me created a master plan in which everybody would think I´m okay so I could be left alone to mourn. Deep inside I was begging my body not to do it but he didn´t respond to me anymore, he was now obeying the person I was transforming into.

I looked at the mirror planning the perfect smile and went downstairs with that fake mask in my face.

“Hey Mum, hey Dad” I say while I kiss them in the cheeks. They both exchanged a concern look, and the first that talked was my mum, laying her hand in mine and saying in pity: “How are you feeling love?” AGH WHY WAS EVERYBODY TREATING ME LIKE A DAMN BABY?- come on Cece be fake, I repeated to myself. “

Perfect Mum though… can I skip school? It´s just that I am not ready for everyone to start asking…” I said cheerful.

“Of course honey we will come early to check up on you…” my father said calmly- ugh I didn´t need their compassion.

 “Oh no, there is no need for that daddy I´m okay” I said laughing so I could control the pain growing in my soul. “And now I´m going back to sleep haha” I said walking out the kitchen waveing them good-bye.

As I walked my body became heavy, and I ran out of energy, I fall in the stairs and went crawling to my room just to collie once again with my bed and start sobbing. 

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