My First Crush

Chapter 15: Bye, Bye.

Throughout the week I had not cared for my health and I still didn´t, but the fact I couldn´t do things without falling was starting to bother me. I linked that, with the fact that I had been without a real sleep of one week, the same week I stopped eating and drinking water and I suffered emotional disorders was causing my lack of energy. I wanted to get it back, but at the same time, I didn´t want to sleep, or eat or… live.

I was confused by how much the three of the boys worried about me, I didn´t want to talk to anyone about what happened, about my aunt and the abduction. I knew Evan and mostly Jason knew some issues were highly wrong and were willing to dig in what happened, but I wasn´t. They knew it was all my fault, the death of my aunt I mean, and they didn´t wanted to accept it. Jason also pointed out the one of the buries that were not caused by the falls and I knew he would bring the topic again.

I knew I had to get out of this mess, I had to do it in a smart way, in a way they would not get someone else in this, and I had to think quickly. I was in Evan´s room leaning in a chair while Eric, Evan and Jason discussed.

“Really Eric what were you thinking?” Evan asked him when he and Jason climbed rushing up the stairs.

“I was thinking she needs a bath to lower her fiver and I won´t let any of you two guys near her” Eric said cocky.

“Listen, I will call Nicole, I will ask her to come and…” Jason suggested.

“No, please don´t. I can handle myself. I can´t ran a marathon but I´m feeling much better. I think I can bath by myself I had been doing it since I was four okay?” I forced a joking tone to make everything sound okay.

“Yeah but…” Evan started.

“Don´t you trust me?” I asked him with my best poor puppy eyes. “Let me, I will feel better after I shower” I finished nodding and smiling.

“Okay lets go guys let her do it” Eric said and was the first one that went out the door. Jason and Evan followed with hesitation and I heard Evan whispered “I don´t trust her” so that meant I had less time to make up something.

When they were gone I started taking my clothes off, and it took an annoying amout of time. Though I was supposed to feel better, I didn´t at all and end up crawling to get inside the bathroom locking the door behind me and turning on tap. The bathtub was filled quickly and I got myself inside it. The water was icy, I forgot to turned the hot tap, but it didn´t quite mattered, the pain of the frozen water was good against my skin.

I had messed things up hugely. I couldn´t just escape from this house, they would call the police and then my parents, and they were already too busy dealing with Caroline, the poor girl who I take her mother away. So what had I left to do? I couldn´t have the three of them worring about me, if they kept like that their life would be consumed by my problems, and they might call Nate, and of course he will come to help me, so I will end up ruining his future if he goes away from the football camp. Plus they were being too nosy and I hated that, and this moment and hated myself badly, and that made me hate everybody around me.

My thoughts went back to Caroline, poor girl without mother. It was all so my fault… I heard a knock in the door and realized I was running out of time. Another knock. I have to think fast, so I sank my head under the water and let the cold embrace me. KNOCK* KNOCK* BUM* I was slightly hearing the sounds outside the water. It was so calm down where I was, there was no oxygen to breath, no problems to deal with. I felt my lungs contracting, but I didn´t fought to pull my head up, I had no energy to do it. so I laid there motionless. I felt the cold water getting inside my nostrils and reaching my throat. CECE* CECE* BUM* the noises were getting distant and the water was running inside me much faster. Finally it filled me, my lungs were drowning, I was drowning and all I did was sink myself futher more in the bathtub. Then I gave up, I just close my eyes and let the water take the life out off me. BUUUUMMM*

Evan´s POV

Why the hell did we let her alone? How could I have been so stupid!?

When I knock the door of the bathroom and there was no answer I tried to open it without hesitation but it was fucking locked. I went crazy, I shouted for help and Jason and Eric came rushing up the stairs. We were trying to knock off the door and we kept shouting her name but there was no damn answer. It was like our tenth try, hitting the wooden door with our bodies when we finally throw it down.

I search for Cece and nothing. My foot got wet, and I realized the floor was flooded and the tap of the bathtub was running. The water got inside my shoes and it was colder than ice itself. I run to the bathtub and stared at torture.

Inside it Cece laid motionless, with frozen skin and her naked body submerged inside the water. That body that I had once stared with desire was now my worst nightmare, the beauty I once admired had been ripped away from my beautiful angel. I couldn´t believe my eyes. “CECE! CECE! CECE!” I shouted desperately while I grabbed a towel and wrapped her fragile body with it. She couldn´t... She couldn´t... She was not dead, I tried to repeat to myself.

I ran out of the bathroom with her in my arms, her body was half covered by the towel but still too many parts were visible and her skin was white as a sheet. I laid her in my bed and placed myself on top of her.

“CECE PLEASE WAKE UP! CECE! CECE!” I shouted shaking her torpid body. I heard Jason and Eric shouting too.

I crashed my lips into her mouth and open it widely. I started exhaling oxygen forcing air into her lungs. I did it three times with no result and cursed in anger. I pulled my hands together and beat them against her chest. I could feel the water inside her, I pushed harder and harder with blows and rappings until after some seconds a big waterfall came out of her mouth and she started coughing. Once I considered the water was out of her body I started with the artificial respiration again until I felt her two weak hands pulled me away and her eyes opened in shock. She started breathing strongly reaching for more air.

“God she is shaking too much” Eric said in a horrified whisper and realizing how bad her tremble was I pushed my body harder against her holding her thigher. She kept moving, shaking, struggling  to get free but I wouldn´t let her.

"Cece please calm down, you are safe, you are okay, nothing will ever happened to you baby" I whispered into her ear and tears run desperately out of my eyes. I continued calming her down until her breathing rate became almost normal and she closed her eyes again.

“Move” Jason told me as he held in his hands several covers, and I obeyed reluctantly. He covered her carefully while I tried to recover my own breathe.