Will you save me? {Justin Bieber Fan-Fiction}

At The Park

My voice is still shaking. He's been staring at me for a good minute now and I'm not sure how to handle this, why doesn't he answer. "Justin, everything alright?"  "I'd like to tell you who I really am, just not here in the bus, somewhere private. Can we meet after school darling?"  I really have to control myself, my anxiety is getting worse and worse. A boy asked me to hang out. I really hoped that this first day goes well but I wasn't expecting to make friends already. "Sure." I hope he didn't notice how nervous I am. He's looking for something in his bag, after a while he takes out a piece of paper and a pen. "Here's my number, call me when school is finished." And exactly at that moment the bus stopped. He are here.

"See you later."  He told me and before I could answer he already left. I look around. There's at least 500 people here. The school looks very nice but it's very vintage. I take one last breath and then walk in. I take out my schedule and try to find out where my class room is. Before I could find out Katy and Laura are walking towards me. "Here you are! I think we have the same classes for today, we can go there together." I'm starting to get a little less nervous. Katy and Laura are really nice and actually everyone around here seems to be okay. We walked down the hallways and after two minutes we reached the door. "So, you're ready Hannah?" She said smiling. "Yes, let's go in!" I'm not sure if I'm really ready, I'm still very nervous and just hoping that this school will be different, that I everyone or at least most of the people will accept me.

Katy, Laura and I are the only ones in here until now so we just sit down in the front row. We have a little talk and after 5 minutes everyone is here including the teacher. "Good morning class! Everyone have a seat." I started shaking again, I see Justin. He didn't tell me that he had the same classes as me. He sits down right beside, I hope he doesn't notice that I'm freaking out right now. "Oh Hannah, I didn't know you have the same classes as me. I'm glad." His voice is just so beautiful. "Neither did I, Nice to see you again." I tried to reply back without him noticing that I was almost fainting. That was all we said during the whole lesson, the teacher was very strict so we weren't allowed to talk. The rest of day went pretty well, I mean it wasn't very interesting but everyone was really nice to me until now. It's lunch time now.

"Hey, I have to go eat lunch with my boys, but I'm sure you can eat with Katy and Laura." I don't know why but I was a little disappointed. Not the fact that I had to eat with Katy and Laura, they are absolute sweethearts, but the fact that Justin didn't want to eat lunch with me. I really hoped we could already talk during lunch. So I went up looking for Katy and Laura, I didn't find them anywhere so I decided to eat lunch alone. It was nothing new to me and I was expecting it anyway. I took out my salad and some piece of bread and started eating. I wasn't really hungry, to be honest I didn't want to eat at all. I just didn't want people to notice that something is wrong with me. I don't think they would care but still, it's better. 

After a good hour lunch is finished and I go back to my class. I sit back to my desk and I notice that Justin, Katy and Laura are already here. I didn't want them to ask where I was at lunch when Justin was listening. I didn't want him to know that I spent lunch alone. So I told Katy and Laura to come outside for a second. "Hey! Where were you at lunch? Where you with Justin?" Oh I wish I'd spent lunch with Justin. "No, I actually was looking for you guys but I couldn't find you, so I ate alone, don't worry though it was okay." They both looked at me and they really looked miserable. "Oh, we're so sorry! We were actually looking for you!" They were looking for me. Nobody ever really cared about me and they really wanted to spend lunch with me, they didn't just want to be nice. My anxiety is almost gone now, I feel very relieved. "Really, you don't need to feel sorry, it's okay. Now let's go in!" 

The lesson goes by very slow since it's my least favorite subject. History. We are talking about the Second World War. I'm not very focused, I barely listen to what the teacher is saying. I notice that Justin is writing something down but it's not about history. Before I could figure out what he's writing he gave the piece of paper to me. "After history, at the park? So we can talk." I knew that this was happening, I knew that we're gonna meet after school but still I was so nervous. My anxiety comes back but I try to hide it as much as I can. I take out a piece of paper and write him back. "Sure." I'd rather answer something like "I can't wait" but somehow I just couldn't write it down. After 90 minutes the lesson is finally over and we can leave. I say goodbye to Katy and Laura and walk towards the park with Justin. After five minutes we're already here. We both sit down at the bench in the middle of this beautiful park. I take a deep breath before I ask this, still very nervous. "So Justin, who are you?" He stares at me for like 30 seconds and then begins to talk, I notice that he's a little nervous as well which calms me down.

"You know everyone sees me as the perfect guy, but I'm not. I'm far away from perfect. My parents broke up and I continued to live with my mother. She was really depressed about losing him so she started to drink. She became alcoholic and needed to go to rehab. She's still there. I had to go to my father after that. But just one month later he died in a car accident. I live all alone in my mother's house now. I have nobody. I mean yeah sure, I have a lot of friends but I think if I really needed them they wouldn't be here for me. I just want someone who really cares, who really is a friend to me. Not because I may look good or I may have a lot of money. Just because of who I am. Do you understand?"

I didn't really know what to answer back. I really feel sorry for him but I just don't know what to say. I really want to be that friend, who is there for him. Before I could answer he continued talking. "Thank you for listening, but now you got to tell me who you are. There's a reason why I'm so open with you. I notice that you always try to smile but your eyes look very different. Just tell me, are you happy?" My heart stopped. How did he notice that? I barely know him, nobody ever noticed not even my mom how unhappy I really am and he notices it after the first day. I'm not sure if I should tell him the truth. He was so open with me and now I should lie to him? It just isn't fair so I decide to tell him the truth. He seems like somebody you can really trust. 

"I don't remember what happy feels like. And I'm sorry about your parents, I really like to help you in any way that I can." I notice my voice is shaking as I'm talking. "Don't worry, just listening to me means a lot to me, really." With every word he said I fell more and more attracted to him. "So back to you, when did you start feeling depressed?" He actually used the word depressed, I wasn't expecting that. I look down. I don't answer for about a minute, not because I don't want to answer I just don't really know how it all started. "Take as much time as you need." He is actually so sweet so I start explaining to him. 

"I think it all started when I got bullied. First only one or two people were picking on me and I didn't really care. I just ignored it, I guess I was a very strong person. But then it wasn't just the two, the whole school started to bully me and hit me as well. After a while I started to believe the things they told me. Even though I'm at a new school now and everyone seems to accept me, everything they said to me, it haunts me every fucking night. It's really hard for me to sleep at night. And when I wake up I wish I didn't. I wish I'd slept forever."

Did I really just say that? Did I really just tell me him that I'm suicidal. Well I didn't say it like that but I'm sure he figured out, he seems like a smart boy. Before I could really think about it he started to talk but I couldn't really focus that much. "Look, these bullies are just very insecure about themselves so they try to make themselves feel better by hurting someone else. You're better than that. Don't listen to them."  I'm trying so hard not to tear up. I really want to cry right now. I just want to let it all out. I haven't cried in years, I just forgot how. I couldn't hold it back anymore. Before I could wipe away my tears, Justin did. He gave me a big hug and at that moment after years for the first time I felt like someone really cares. "It's okay, I'm here."  "Thank you, really Justin thank you so much for everything. I barely know you and you helped me more than anyone else ever did. Thank you for listening and thank you for caring." He looked at me with his beautiful eyes and started to pull me in even closer. "I think I fell in love with you, Hannah."