Will you save me? {Justin Bieber Fan-Fiction}

Together Unbroken

It's been a week since Justin told me about his friend passing away and it has been a week since I saw him harming himself. It's been a horrible week, I couldn't sleep at all. All I could think about is Justin. I'm afraid he's gonna keep hurting himself now, I just don't want him to start all over again. He was so strong and I know that he still is now. He didn't really want to talk about what happened or how he feels he just told me he needs some time for himself. It's been a whole week since we saw each other and today we are finally seeing each other again. I hope at least. I don't want to admit it but I'm really scared that he has done something to himself and that's the reason that he never called me. I throw that thought right away, I can't think like that. I have to think positive.

I make my way to the park where we always meet. Normally he's always too early so I'm kind of worried that he isn't here yet. After thirty minutes I decide to call him since he still hasn't arrived but just at the time I want to get my phone out of my bag I see Justin making his way towards me. He isn't smiling like he normally always does, he's frowning. I've never seen him like this, normally it's always me who's depressed. It kills me to see him like this. He walks up to me, gives me a kiss on my cheek and a quick "Hey, I missed you." Well if you would've missed me you would've called, I think to myself. "I really missed you too." Unlike him I really mean it. 

"I know it seems like I don't mean it, but I really missed you okay. I just didn't have the strength to talk the last days. I just felt so down and basically everything I did all day was lay in my bed. I'm sorry but I needed that time. I still love you as much as I did before and you still mean as much to me as you did before. I hope you understand that."

"I really missed you too, Justin. I understand that you needed time, going trough something like that is seriously the worst so I totally understand you. Don't worry. I'm sorry I'm asking this but I just need to know. My week hasn't been good either, I didn't get any sleep the whole week. Can you please just tell me if you have harmed yourself again beside that night I saw?"

Justin looks deep into my eyes, takes a deep breath and starts talking really slowly. "I just can't lie to you, you're to important to me. So I guess I have to tell you the truth. I would be lying if I'd say I never picked up a blade the last days. I really thought I could stop after that one time, but I can't stop it anymore. I'm sure you know what I mean. It's just so addicting and I can't deny that it makes me feel a lot better, even though it's only for a short time. I'm so sorry to tell you this but I just want to be honest with you. Please, don't feel sorry. None of this is your fault and it's not your responsibility as well."

How should I not feel bad for him? Justin is seriously the person that made me stop cutting and now I can't help him. That really breaks me apart. He saved me in so many ways but I can't save him, no matter what I say. I'm just not as a good friend to him as he is to me. I wish I could be his lifesaver, like he is mine. Only one thing comes to my mind. Therapy.

"I know that I can't save you, but I know a thing that could help you. I know you're going to hate me for this but it's really the only thing that can make you 100% clean. Will you go to therapy with me? We can make it trough together. We can fight our demons together."

He thinks for a while and then answers. "I mean, I can give it a try but I just don't know if it will help. I just feel like nothing can save me right now but I'll try it, for you."

I'm so happy that he comes to therapy with me now I'm not alone anymore. I mean sure there would be other people there but no one I really know so it's great to have the best human being by your side. I finally see him smiling again, like there's hope in his eyes again. Even if he says he thinks he won't be saved I know that deep inside he still has some hope and faith.