Will you save me? {Justin Bieber Fan-Fiction}

Facing The Bullies

The next morning I wake up to my phone ringing. Today is the day, I need to go back to school to face my bullies. I haven't really got a lot of sleep last night and I'm sure I look like I partied all night long. As I'm going to the kitchen I see that Justin is already awake. I walk up to him to kiss him, I just need his comfort right now, I need him to be there for me. 

"Don't you worry, it's going to be alright! I can't promise they won't call you names but what you need to know is that you are better than them and that you shouldn't care what they're saying. You are so much better than that, believe me. You know that nothing they say is true babe." That's exactly what I needed to hear right now. I seriously do not know what I would be doing without him, I wouldn't even be alive without him, he continues to save me everyday.

We both eat breakfast together and then leave for school. The closer we get to our school the more anxious I get. I try to repeat Justin's words in my head. It doesn't matter what they say about you, you're better than that. Hannah, you're better than that. The more I say it, the more I believe it but I know as soon as they start bullying me I will forget everything again and blame myself. We're almost here and I see a huge sign but I can't read what it's saying. I hope it has nothing to do with me. "Uhm- Wait a moment! I-I forgot my math book at home. Can you get it for me? My leg is hurting. Please." I can tell he's lying and I know why. I'm sure it has something to do with the sign, it must be about me. I guess he doesn't want me to see it.

"If I keep running away from everything I'm never gonna get stronger. I have to face my bullies. It's okay Justin, really it's fine." I can't believe these words came out of my mouth. I feel proud about myself for finally being strong. He nods and kisses me on my cheek before we continue walking towards the school. As I get closer I can read what it's saying and now I understand why Justin didn't want me to see it. "HANNAH YOU SUICIDAL FREAK, GO HOME AND CUT YOURSELF"

I thought I was prepared for everything but I guess I wasn't. I thought I was strong enough to face my bullies but I guess I'm just not. I notice myself crying as Katy is walking towards me. I hope she doesn't think like the others and is on of the few people who actually have my back. She is getting closer and closer and my anxiety level is getting higher and higher. "Wanna follow what the sign is saying freak? I would've never been friends with you if I knew you were a fucking emo, you cunt. Go home and cut yourself like you do anyway." 

I guess I thought wrong, she acts like all the others. I really thought she was a good friend but I guess the only I can really trust is Justin. I start crying ever harder. "Oh no you're crying, great. Fucking stop do you really need that much attention, just leave this school already and keep on hurting yourself you emo." She walks back to her friends again and Justin agrees to go home again. I'm not strong enough to face my bullies yet.

I'm not only crying at the fact that Katy and the others really hurt me with their words but also what humanity is turned into. I just really do not understand how you can make fun of someone who hurts themselves or is suicidal. I don't know what's wrong with this world we're living in. Why is it funny if someone cuts themselves to take away the pain?! Maybe we have never learned any other way to cope with pain! I'm so angry right now, I'd like to hit these people in their fucking face with a chair. It's just not fair. The people who are the nicest get the most hate. I do not want to live in a society like this anymore. My suicidal thoughts come back again and I would be lying if I'd say I would be glad to be alive right now.

As we arrive at home I go straight up to my room and tell Justin I'd like to have some time for myself. I have to promise him not to hurt me, I promise him but I'm not sure if I can keep the promise. I'm in so much pain right now and all I wanna do is take a blade and hurt myself. I try to be strong, for Justin and for my family but it's so hard. The words they said keep running trough my head. I keep questioning myself why they are all so mean to me. Why is it always me? Why do I always have to be the victim of bullying? Do I really deserve all of this? I just can't take this anymore. I look outside and I see Justin outside crying. I instantly forget all my thoughts about hurting myself and run down to him.