The Novice.

Desert of Prayer

Amber POV. at the Institute of the sisters of the Holy face preparations for Christmas, supper was going very animation the sisters and employees, where was going corridors, the rooms and closure found with ornaments Christmas. some sisters were doing their work and ending classes for the arrival Christmas among teachers. already the 5 novices including Irma Krystal not be found at the Institute, heard rumors that they were doing a species of retreat, since it was almost 3 months since then had not seen more her, and I felt a lack huge it, these 5 months seemed an eternity, I couldn't me focus in class, always looked at the room where she gave class and was being replaced by a sister robust. I couldn't stop thinking it, felt much missing, and the times in the cafeteria paid attention in conversations employee speaking when novices return of the retreat, and my heart hopped of joy when heard the name of Irma Krystal. I don't via the time of these 3 months that lacked, spend soon and with the arrival of Christmas, power Reve it .foi when I had an idea that actually this single idea could solve my problems because I knew she doing the first vows religious, it would be much more difficult to be close it, it until could be transferred to another place, I knew little about the convent, more what little knew reading books and seeing movies that they were always transferred to the other convents I don't bear become more any day without it, I thought why not enter the religious life and be one of them? what me prevented, practically nothing, I was singles, young, had no children, I am not married I have no problems with Vanity and my hair is already short, I am a great teacher, they would gain me having around always ... talves could be an idea crazy and would be deceiving these poor women, the more I haven't found another way to be next to Krystal, then took the decision to enter the order and talk today with the mother.
Krystal Pov
I remember 2 months ago when I was packing to go to the convent of San Sebastian in the Mountains, my soul was restless, I felt my heart beat stronger at every thought I had about Amber, since I had not spoken to her before, alone. To see them through the rooms in which we were separated, after a month Mother Maria Kim called a meeting between me and the novices, I remember every word the mother said.
"Good evening, my daughters," Mother said.
"Good evening, Mother Superior." The five novices answered in smiling unison.
"I think your novice teachers have already informed you about the Desert of Prayer that my daughters will be doing for three months."
"Yes, Mother Superior," the 5 Novices replied.
Mother Mary Kim paced her Novices, pattering her faces and said.
-This Desert is a very important moment for all of you, to think, reflect, totally leave the world of body and soul, to the silence of the soul and to hear only the voice of Jesus your beloved husband, tomorrow you left for the Convent of St. Sebastião and stayed with the elderly sisters for 3 months and came back on Christmas day where we will make the supper between the entire institute and the employees, among those 24 hours left all of you left this room in silence, you will not be able to talk to anyone will continue to The chapel lined up and made the vespers, it will be like this until tomorrow.
Now it's been almost 2 months and it seems like an eternity, I wanted to see it again, sometimes I could not even concentrate on the studies and retreats of the Deserts that we did in the convent of San Sebastian, the place was beautiful, calm, just heard The singing of the birds on the windows and the Gregorian background music, which would be perfect for anyone who really wanted the life of a nun and longed for her, but when 2 years ago I was sure of my decision I did not have the worry the shadows of fear And doubts in my heart, life has nailed me a trap, of which I would fall madly in love with a woman and would not know how to deal with it.

There was still a month left for the prayer desert to finish, there were still many exercises, conversations with the older nuns, and the lectures given by the formation teachers, there was also the desert part of the dawn where every Friday we met with the teachers of And three older sisters in the chapel for the perpetual adoration that began at midnight and went until five in the morning, fasting and lying on the ground, was the sacrifice of the soul, where I was talking to my future husband and even if I fought Amber's face was in my thoughts.