Almost is never enough
So close to being in love
Maybe it did start because of that lyric prank.
At first I knew this thing was "in" and so I tried to do it to a friend of mine. I thought of some lyrics of a song and started with a simple message.
(words in bold is me)
A... Please don't be mad but...
This makes me nervous ahahah
I just wanted to tell you...
But how? When you're near, I trip on my words
I don't know... what does "I trip on my words" mean?
I'm shy
I back out quickly
The words that I'd say vanishes
I don't know ahahah but why would I get mad?
Maybe someone's in love even if you don't notice.
I'll just bear this and hope that you'll see me.
Is this a song?
Or are you serious?
When I started to do this prank, my fingers are shaking and I don't know why. My heart pounds loudly and beats rapidly and I kept pacing around the room. I feel like I can't do it but then I did. With a little hint of courage, I finally did it. Even though he said that line, I continued on with the game or prank.
I don't wanna look stupid to you
You don't look stupid to me
I literally freaked out and my eyes widened as he said this to me. I was surprised and I didn't know what to do or what to reply. It took me a couple of minutes until I carried on.
But I'm confused...
I don't know why is it like this
Why? what should I do?
I guess nothing will happen to these feelings of mine
Let's talk on monday because I am really confused
This made me super nervous like 'what am I gonna say to him?'. This stopped me from my tracks for a while. It took a lot of minutes untill I got back to my business.
I don't wanna think that you'll say something
I also don't want to look stupid in the end
You're not looking stupid
So don't ask
I don't know what to say
I don't want to admit something
Just tell me. We won't fight.
Somehow I wish that someday I could stop myself from observing you
I'm just going in circles
Tell me. I won't get mad.
Not like this. We're both confused
What if I suddenly tell you?
Hoping you would understand
But how can I understand when I'm forcing you to say it?
Are you numb?
Now this stopped me from sending any lyrics. He's really numb to be honest. He can't even get my thought! I am like confessing in a prank way.
I guess not.
It's just hard to think of things that are unsure.
To be honest, he has a point. I get him. But he's still numb.
Are you taking all my words seriously?
Yes.
Do I somehow cross your mind?
This was the end because he seenzoned me. Then I admitted thay I was only pranking him. We both laughed and he said that it was alright. Although I wished that all of this wasn't a joke. But I also couldn't let my friends know that I have this feeling towards him. They would just judge me and I don't want that to happen. I can't bear it.
I was almost at the edge of falling. And maybe he is too.
But I guess...
Almost is never enough.
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