Don't you see me?
I think I'm falling
I'm falling for you
Maybe you'll change your mind
Today is his birthday. I greeted him and said
Happy Birthday!!
Ty ahahah
You're so old hahaha
But you're older ahahah
That's mean of you hahaha
Sorry ahahah
That's okay hahaha
And that's how it ended. I was expecting more but I guess that is it's limitation. Somehow I was satisfied by what we have talked about. Even if it's short, he gets to joke with my joke. It's nice to think we get along very well.
But still, he never sees me more than a friend. Earlier, I was at school because we had a Chorale practice for gratitude day. When we were done, I talked with my friend for like 45 minutes until my parents came to fetch me. I was bombarded by many text messages and missed calls from them. Anyways, me and my friend talked about the girl. I asked if there was something between A and her.
She didn't know so she didn't reply but just laughed. I don't want to think deeper and assume just because she didn't answered my question. It may hurt to think if there really was something between them. That's why I don't want to. It would be hard for me. I like him and to think that he's having something towards her.
I still keep on questioning myself. What am I really feeling towards him? I am still bewildered. I don't know but maybe...
I'm falling for him.
But it's hard to think of that way. All I know is I like him but this time, it's different. Something about him makes me do things I've never done before. Like that prank. He was the first thing that entered my mind as I think of a person to test that prank with. No, it isn't a coincidence that he was the first. For me, I guess it was a sign.
Why him? of all the boys I know, why him? Is there something about him that caught my attention? To answer that question, yes. There's always been something about him even from the start. The way we've become friends. It was somehow, unexplainable. Again, words aren't enough. It has to be something more. More deeper than the deepest words.
Maybe it's love. But love isn't a deep word.
Yes but, it can be defined into different ways. Making it deep. Because Love requires action. It doesn't only depend on what you feel like doing. It takes commitment and responsibility.
And I know I am not ready for that but who knows? I haven't tried to act love anyways...
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