Don't fear the whisper of your feelings
After that prank, all things went smooth but awkward. When we saw each other that monday, it was kinda awkward. I tried to avoid him and not talk to him but I couldn't. We were in the same environment. Avoiding would be hard especially when you're batchmates. *sighs*.
When it's our lunch time, he was in our classroom with a few of his troupe. Then he talked to me and teased me about the guy who liked me in 7th grade. I just did go with the flow and acted chill. Although inside I was freaking out and nervous and everything... You name it. I couldn't get the awkwardness inside of me out. It was hard especially when the person whom you've pranked is in front of you. I felt super shy and self-conscious.
Since then, that monday was our last talk in person. I guess it was fate that brought us together.
Another thing... One time, we were so stressed with all the projects because of their deadlines. Then once he mentioned in our group chat that he needs some help with their TLE project. I was free of any projects and so I helped him. I used 100% of my effort. I edited the picture they needed, I thought of a brand name, a tagline and everything else. When I sent him the finished product, he thanked me for my kindness. He really thanked me. Because of me, less stress was applied to his being.
I did really wanna help him. 50/50. First 50, I wanna help because I am free off work. Second 50, I wanna help because I want him to notice me...??? I ain't sure and I don't wanna admit. But it's true. Who could help him when others are busy playing leauge of legends? I am the only one who can help him. I felt proud of myself that he has seen the kindness and goodness in me. I hope he could see more of what I am capable of and that he could accept me for me and/or see me more than a friend.
Who am I kidding?! He can't see me more than a friend.
It was impossible.
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But nothing is impossible unless you believe.
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