The love illusion

The painful distance

I woke up with a smile glued to my face as I just woke up from the dream of me and Mr Castelo kissing. All I could think about is me wanting to know more about him and why he left me wanting more of him.

I stepped  into the shower with a spring in my step; even the cold water wasn't going to ruin my day today. I walked out and got changed into some black skinny jeans and a flattering jumper that showed my curves.

I started to walk down the stairs; the smell of freshly cooked bacon carrying me down the stairs. "What's got you in a good mood" my mum politely asked. "Oh nothing" I said to try and deny the fact that yesterday I had a major kissing session with my new teacher; who after a few hours of Facebook stalking found out that his real name is Tyler. I quickly checked my phone to realise I was going to be late if I didn't get a move on. I rushed out of the door and drove to school. I managed to get a spot and I walked into the door just in time. I checked my planner to realise I had history first. My face lit up and me and Yasmin and Nat all walked to history. I wanted to see his face again and his eyes that are always perfect. So many thoughts rushed through my brain. Would it be awkward? It can't because yesterday was definitely not awkward.

I stood at the door my mind wanting to go in but my body refusing to. I took the brave step and walked in to notice that he wasn't in the class. Why do we have supply. So many questions was thrown at me that my brain couldn't handle it. Sadness struck me like a bolt of lightning. The lesson felt like forever and I felt even worse that I was Capable of making a teacher not want to come to his own lesson in the second day of school.

The rest of the day felt lonely and boring. Even smiling felt hard. It was clear that he doesn't want me anymore; maybe my kissing is that bad. The day got worse and worse and I realised that not only I scared the guy I like away. I had a p6 that I was dragged to. I don't even have to go but all my friends want me to join an hour of torturous history.

I walked down the stairs to be greeted with Yasmin, Nat and Elijah all chatting and giggling and today was the one day which I could not be In the mood to make polite chit chat. But maybe what If he is just ill and this is just a coincidence. My brain some how shot into positive mode and thought that maybe tomorrow was going to better and me and Tyler could see if we can form some sort of secret relationship because I just wanted to see him everyday. I tried to dodge and tuck away from my friends in the crowd of people stood near us to go home and try and think positive but of course they all saw me and grabbed me forcing me to go even if I was kicking and screaming.

We all walked into history but I noticed something different than our other history lesson. He was there. Sat on the chair not noticing us while he was on his phone. I didn't know what to think of all this. Maybe he couldn't come to history due to some prior agreement but he is here now and that all that mattered.
The door slammed shut which made him quickly turn around to see us all stood near the front entrance of the classroom. His face looked confused on why I was in the class. Tension clouded the air. Tears started to overwhelm my eyes but I just tried to ignore that as all my friends was around me. I simply just whispered in Nat's ear "I have to go I forgot I said I would help Derek with some homework." She simply nodded her head in approval. I scurried out trying to not let sadness over take me.

It was at that point I felt someone grab my arm, it was him. The one who at this moment I couldn't bare to be around. I could understand if he was busy for the whole day but he came to period six as he thought I wasn't going to be there. "Dakota I think we need to talk as he grabbed my arm leading me into an empty classroom" the sexy voice said which I once adored so much. No word was spoke until he began to talk. "I'm sorry that I kissed you and I was totally wrong and that can never happen again; even if you report me I totally understand however like I said it can never happen again" silence filled the air. I was completely speechless. In a moment of anger I spat out in rage "of course I will keep our dirty little secret but I don't ever want to see you again I want to move out of your class because I cannot stand the pain you are putting me through right now" I violently pulled my arm away from his grasp and ran out of the room and into my car. My head against the steering wheel, tears in my eyes.

How could he do this to me?