Just A Fading Memory

8

CC

Jake led me to the front door and then introduced me to everyone. Andy was the really tall one with the really deep voice. Ashley wasn't wearing a shirt which was a little weird, and Jinxx was quiet and introverted. Then Jake went on to introduce me to the two girlfriends. Juliet was the blond and Andy's girl, Alice was Jinxx's girl, and Ashley was apparently single. I smiled at them and stuck by Jake's side the whole time. His friends were loud and insane and just fun to be around. How could I have forgotten this life?!

Me and Jake sat on the couch and he put his arm around me and Andy raised an eyebrow. God my face must be extremely red. I covered my face and he laughs.

"You two are so cute together!" Alice squeals. I think Jake's blushing as well because everyone laughed.

"Yep. You're so bashful together it's adorable."

"You two are pretty cute as well." I turned it to Jinxx and Alice.

"Thanks!" She smiles and Jinxx blushed biting his lip. He was adorable with that whole shy boy persona and she kissed his cheek. Andy and Ashley had disappeared. Juliet was still sitting on the floor and Ashley came back in with a bottle of whiskey and a beer and hands it to Jake.

"Want one CC?" Ashley asks.

"No thanks, I don't drink." Everyone went silent and Ashley was staring at me wide eyed like I'd just say something insane. The whiskey dropped from his hand and the bottle broke, soaking Jinxx in whiskey.

"What'd I miss?" Andy said taking in the scene. He must have been outside.

"What's next CC you gonna say you hate the drums?" Ashley finally says.

"I've never played them so how can I hate them?" I answered.

"Jake you just said he couldn't remember us. Not that he didn't know anything he used to do!"

"That's it." I stood up. "I'M RIGHT FUCKING HERE ASHLEY! YOU KNOW I CAN HEAR YOU. NOW I'M SORRY I CAN'T REMEMBER A GODDAMN THING, BUT JAKE'S FINE WITH IT SO WHY CAN'T YOU BE?!" I yelled in his face and stormed out of the house. Jake was quick to follow me and grabbed my arm.

"I'm not apologizing."

"And I didn't expect you too Christian. The guys were devastated as well when you disappeared but you and Ashley were like brothers so you have to understand his feelings here."

"I'm still mad at him though." And I was but I did get why he was so shocked and upset. I know I'm gonna have to apologize. I hate having to do the right thing when I don't want to. I was only gonna be mad at him for a day or two so it wasn't like I would never forgive him. I sighed and walked back inside. Things were awkwardly silent still and Ashley was busy cleaning up his mess. "Here let me help." I knelt next to him and started picking up shards of the broken bottle.

"Thank you." He said quietly and we silently cleaned up. After it was done, I pulled Ashley aside before he went to rejoin everyone. "Listen I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm just as frustrated not being able to remember y'all, Jake, what I used to be. Jake made me sound so carefree and now I'm practically scared of my own shadow."

Ashley hugs me and I hugged him back. "Its okay CC. I forgive you. It's just hard for me to accept the fact that-"

"Ashley stop. You're gonna make me cry. I feel bad already. Now where's that smile? I don't like sad people." He still was frowning and I poked him.

"Stop it." He smiled slightly.

"Are you ticklish or something?" I kept poking him trying to lighten the mood and make him laugh. Sure enough Ashley starts laughing.

"Stop it CC!" I started laughing as well.

"There's that smile! Success!"

"Shut up." He pushed me. Jake came back to us, probably wondering what was going on.

"What's up?"

"CC's being a bully." Ashley crosses his arms and fake pouts.

"Take me away, I was gonna tickle him to death." Ashley stuck his tongue out at me and Jake smiles. "You know you love me Ashes." I teased him.

"Yeah." He smiles at me and then goes back out to the others. Jake turns his attention to me.

"Looks like you two are on good terms now. I'm glad. We all really missed you Christian. Me especially." Jake was so frustratingly close that I couldn't help but grab his collar and kiss him. He put his hands on my waist and pulled me even closer. I never wanna forget this life ever again. Not one moment of it.