"You fell asleep next to me. We were looking up at the stars. I saw you were asleep and then took you back to my house," he explained to me, upon my stupid asking of how I'd gotten to his bedroom. Now I remembered.
"Oh yeah... Sorry, I didn't mean to have you carry me all that way, you could've woken me up."
"No, you're fine, you just looked really tired," he explained, but I still felt bad for making him drag me around. I probably weighed at least 200 something pounds.
We walked downstairs, I sat down and waited for Josh to sit next to me on the couch and turn on the tv. He switched it on to his recorded shows and put on Grey's Anatomy. He put his arm around my should and I leaned my head on his. New lyrics and rhymes sailed through my head effortlessly and peacefully. I thought how I could write another song for him, maybe one I could play for him in the far future. I started to close my eyes slowly.
"I love you Joshua Dun."
"I love you too, Tyler Joseph."
And that's how I fell asleep, again.
Dreams flowed through my head, giving me hope for the future and what was to come of our relationship, I hoped more dreams would come, so I didn't have to stare at the back of my eyes all night. I was just a 17 year old boy, with no hope for the days to come, and look at me now! I had a boyfriend, well, a boy that loved me like I loved him, and all was well.
I woke up, noticing I was by myself. I checked the time.
12:17 PM
I stood up and looked around for Josh. I told myself he was okay, everything was fine. It was stupid to worry. Not in his room, nor kitchen. Not in the bathroom, or office. I started to worry, and I looked outside.
I wish I hadn't.
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trapdoor//joshler
FanfictionJosh and Tyler have been best friends ever since Josh helped out Tyler when he was being pushed around at school. But will new feelings between the two have an effect on their inseparable friendship? Trigger warnings: Self harm Suicidal thoughts Su...
