Starbucks Lovers. (Connor Franta Fanfiction) \

Chapter 12: Panic Attack

Olivia's POV

I stepped into my dorm building and headed up the stairs. I lived in a co-ed dorm, so there was always a mix of girls and boys around. My eyes were still watering and my nose was running. I tried to avoid contact with any one, until this boy bumped into me. Mike Leonard, known for throwing parties and making trouble. He was not my type of guy.

"Hey hot stuff, where you headed?" He slurred, beer in hand. 

I tried to walk away as fast as possible, but he grabbed my arm. 

"Don't you wanna join are party?" he said, gripping tighter on my arm. 

"N-o th-thank yo-u" I stuttered out. I yanked my arm out of his grip. 

"Fine. Miss out on the party. It's your loss." he stumbled back into his dorm, where the was loud music blaring. It was only 4 in the afternoon. Who has a party this early?

I headed up 3 more flights of stairs, and finally got to my hallway. Madison and I were the only girls on my level. The guys in this hall were all quiet, so I had no problem with them. 

My dorm was open and no one was there. There was a note on Madi's bed. 

-Went out to get groceries. Be back in like an hour and a half :) xoxo Madi-

Although I would like some support while I write my paper, Madi wasn't the person for that. 

I sat at my desk and opened up my Macbook. I put in my headphones and went to my "Studying" playlist. It was all classical music. Time to start this paper. 

(Spongebob narrator voice-2 hours later)

"Finished!" I yelled, standing up my chair. I had revised my 1st draft into the most perfect paper ever. I hit print and got it out from the digital printer. I put it away in my folder and checked my phone, which had been on the other side of the room so it wouldn't distract me. 3 texts from Connor. 

Connor F. :)- You can do this paper Liv! I believe in you!

Connor F. :)- Are you almost done? I wanna talk to yoooou!

Connor F. :)- Text me when you're done so we can talk!

I immediately responded. 

Me- Connor! I finished my paper in 2 hours! New record :P 

Connor F. :) Way to go :D Do you think you could call me? Texting is no fun :P

I found him in my contacts, hit his name, and pressed call. 

"Ello ello ello!" he chuckled in a fake British accent. 

"Connor, no British person talks like that." I giggled. 

"And how do you know, Miss Olivia Marie Kelly? You're not British!" He said, continuing the accent.

"I spent my summers in England with my grandma from 3rd grade, to 12th grade. My parents didn't want to deal with me being home for 3 months." 

"Oh. I'm sorry. I bet you had a bunch of summer flings with those attractive British men." he said sarcastically. 

"Actually, I only had one." I sighed. 

"I don't wanna hear it! You seem upset about it, and I don't wanna make you sad!" 

We talked for another 45 minutes, until Madi came home. 

"LIV GET OFF THE PHONE WITH CONNOR! WE HAVE GIRL TIME." Madi shouted as she entered the room. 

"Hey, Madi's back, and is yelling at me to get off the phone! I'll call you later!" I said. 

Connor said his goodbye, and I hung up. I hopped off my bed and went over to Madi.

"What do you mean girl time?" I asked.

"We'll watch movies, gossip, eat food, paint our nails. Normal girl things." she said, as she put away food. "I rented Clueless and Sleepover, and bought Ben and Jerry's quarts. And we have to talk."

*later that night*

Madi and I had finished watching both movies, and our ice cream had been long gone. We now sat on the couch talking.

"So how are things with you and Jc?" I asked.

"Well...things are going great! He told me last night, that he, uh, that he," she paused, biting her lip.

"Tell me!" I shouted, getting excited.

"He said, he wants me to be his girlfriend!" she giggled with joy.

"It's only been like 3 days since you met! But maybe he has strong feelings for you! What did you say? Please tell me you said yes!"

"I did! I told him I really liked him, but he better not hurt me, because I'm fragile!" she laughed. 

I leaned over and hugged her and we both did a little happy dance. 

"What about you and Connor? Anything happening there?" she asked.

"Well, he's super sweet. I like him a lot. He seems interested at times, but like, I don't know if he's just being friendly." I sighed. I really hoped he was interested, because he was the sweetest guy ever. 

"I happen to know that he likes you. A lot." 

"What? How do you know?" I began breathing heavily. 

"Liv, breathe." I took a deep breath. "I know he likes you because I overheard him talking about it with Ricky, and then he confirmed it to me." 

My palms began to get sweaty, my heart was racing, and I felt a choking feeling in my throat. I knew what this was. I was having a panic attack. I have a panic disorder so they happen very frequently. Sometimes because of high anxiety, and other times I'm completely relaxed. I needed fresh air immediately. 

"I. Need. Outside." I gasped. I ran out of our dorm very fast. That's when the dizziness sunk in. I stumbled down the 5 flights of stairs and ran outside. It was midnight now. I laid down on the ground, and the trembling of my body and the hyperventilation started. I tried to keep my breathing at a steady pace, but it was hard. This was one of the worst ones yet. The last thing I remember before I blacked out, was Madi running towards me.