Lose Your Self // Jovani Jara

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Theo's POV

    *KLING..* the bell sound when I got out from the mini market, I open my chocolate bar and walk for some steps, I looked around while biting on the chocolate. "Ups.." I caught Jovani and Luna walk together on the sidewalk "you're not gonna hurt her anymore.. I'll take her from you..." I walk with anger and leave. "I can't believe it.. her closest friend never knowing what her feel?? what a stupid friend?.." I laying on the bed, "is all okay?" John turning around "nothing.. I've promised with someone... to not tell anyone.." I said "okay..." he turn around again and focused on his laptop again. "I want to ask you something.." "what?" he said still focused "if you had a bestfriend and girlfriend who is more important...?" I ask, he turn around "of course bestfriend.. bestfreidn always be there for you... girlfriend? hah.. has nothing.." he said and back "but if your bestfriend is love you.. will you break the friendship and begin the relationship with her, or stay in friendship?" I ask slowly and he turn around again with confused face.

    "are you okay..? you never ask me so serious like this before..." he ask "uhm.. yes I am.. I just want to ask your opinion..." I lied "you can tell me I'm your bestfriend bro.. maybe I can help you again this time.. but you have to promise to me too.. if you belonged to her don't play with her, don't hurt her, don't use her, don't ever cheat on her, and don't ever you leave her except she is thinks it would be the best way..." he said and come closer "I don't know bro.. it's just so hard.. she is love someone.. but the person that she love is always hurting her, I won't that all happen. if I belonged to her, I'll keep her save, I will never hurt her, I will never using her, I won't playing with this special one, and I will not Leave her alone and always be by her side.." I said "then who is she?" he ask "she is special for me, I never fallin in love so deep before... she is the most perfect girl for me in the world...she is .. Y/n.." I said. I looked at his face he was shocked "I'll help you bro... well at the first time see you met her.. you are change.. and I'll help you if you promise to me.." he said "I promise to God.." I said seriously "but..."

Y/n's POV

     I took the razor in the bathroom and locked my self inside, I was so stressed. everything is crazy, I feel like everything is on fire, I want to run away from my life, I want die. I can't help this anymore, I'm tired, tired of everything, my self my life... 'Beep..!' I heard my phone from my pocket, I took it out and see that Theo texting me, without thinking anymore I said to him 'can I go to your apartment...??' quickly 'yeah sure..' he reply fast. I throw the razor and run outside and drive my car to his apartment, I drove it so fast with tears dripping. I really need someone who can make me little bit relax, I got there and call him "I'm down can you pick me I don't know your apartment room..." I said with crazy voice "okay.. wait.." he hung up the call. I'm waiting for him for like 5 mins, and then he came with John "are yo.." I hug him tightly and crying on his chest. I can feel his hand around me "are you okay..? did you see them?" he ask and I just nodded and crying.

    "come on go inside.. here..." he took off his hoodie and give it to me, I took it and wear it. I covering my face on his back, I feel so scared I don't know so I just try to catch Theo's hand and hold it so so tight "come here.." he pull me closer and embrace me. I feel so warm with his hoodie that looks like I wearing a dress and be on his arm is makes me relax and calm. we all got on his room, "sit there I'll make you a hot tea.." he leave me alone with John "are you okay..?" John ask me " maybe no..." I said to him "I know... if I was you I'll be like that too..." he said "wait ho... yeah.. Theo.." I smiling to Theo in the back. "here it is..." Theo come and offering the tea to me and then sit beside me, "it will be okay right..." he said to me "uhm yeah.. ihave to finish something I'll leave you two here..." John leave us to up stairs. "can I?" I ask him "what?" he ask and I laid on his chest with the tea on my hand "oh.." he realize and little bit confused.