It Doesn't Matter, You Still Left

Chapter 5

I couldn't look at him, I kept my head in my hands refusing to make eye contact...

"Niall...I." I stopped do to Paisley's soft cries. I looked at her and she was still asleep, Niall's hand reached over and popped her binky in her mouth making her turn her head and fall asleep again, lazy child.

I looked at Niall and smiled. "Proceed." He raised his eyebrows

Just lie.

"So you know how my mum was moving?" I asked more questioning myself

"Ya." He said unsurely

"Well, I realized that when she moved half way across the world that I'd be here...alone."

"You were fine with it when you first found out, you could've cared less that she was leaving." I nodded

"I know. But still I didn't want to be alone Niall. So I wanted you to stay." He sighed a little frustrated

"I can still read you like an open book, you know?" I looked down trying not to give to much away, I've always been a very bad liar.

Nialls pointer finger lifted up my chin so I was looking at him. "I know you're not telling me something and I really want answers. But I can tell you need some time so I'll give you all the time in the world, I just need to know."

I nodded, my eyes filled up with tears once again but I held them back, I wouldn't be weak again. He's giving me some time, I've had two years, and I still need time.. and he understands.

Before I could muster up any words Niall pulled me in for a hug wrapping his strong arms around me. I swear I melted in his arms, I missed the feeling of him holding me and as much as I don't want to say it..I missed him.

"Thanks for coming down here today." He said once he let go of me

"I'm sorry I couldn't give you any real answers."

"And I'm sorry you're still a really bad liar." He laughed

"Shut up." I murmured hitting his arm lightly

"Hey, what do ya say we go for some coffee at Starbucks tomorrow evening?" He asked

"Uh, I have work."

"Another day?"

"Ni, I'm sorry but I don't really.." I started to find a nice way to say I didn't want to be around him before he cut me off

"You know what, its fine. I hope to see you around." He stood up and started to walk away

"Uh, Niall?" I stopped him, he turned around and looked at me his beautiful blue eyes sparkled "Friends?"

I mentally slapped myself, his whole face lit up immediately and he smiled then turned around and walked away.

Niall is the most stubborn person ever, he will not quit until he gets his answers and if he's around me a lot they're bound to come out because they're been slowly eating me alive for a long time.

***

I stepped out of the shower and dried off changing into blue skinny jeans, black heels, a white short sleeved shirt, and my black infinity scarf. I did my make up to match my skin tone so it was pretty unnoticeable, my hair was down and curled.

I clicked down the stairs into my kitchen and poured myself some coffee in a to go cup.

"All ready for work?" Ella asked walking into the room carrying Paisley