The Fighters Return Book Two

Phoenix's POV

Sitting on the edge of my bed I hold the jacket I bought so long ago close to my chest as I will myself to stop crying like a baby, depression weighing heavy on my heart I take deep breaths to try and stop myself from having a damn panic attack. Suddenly there's a knock on my door and I place the jacket on my bed, before rising from it and making my way to the door. Opening the door just a little, my breath catches in my throat at the sight of Raelyn standing before me. I know I should just man up and deal with my issues, but I don't want to get used to having her around if she's gonna disappear again. I shake my head and go to close the door. "Go away" I  say but before I can fully shut the door Raelyn puts her foot in the way and I growl lowly. she knows I won't shut it if her foot is in the way, I don't want to hurt her... "We have to talk Scar" she says as she pushes her way through the door, groaning loudly I make my way to my bed and sit down again. "I can't deal with this right now Raelyn" I say and she sighs. "My name isn't Raelyn anymore, I'd appreciate it if you didn't call me it" she says and I frown, "yeah, and my name is Phoenix but you don't see me pestering you to call me that now do ya? No didn't think so" I snap moodily and she frowns but says nothing. "Raelyn was the silly 18 year old girl that was forced to grow up too fast Scar, that's not me anymore I've grown up" she says to me and I  stare at her blankly, "Yeah and I'm not the gullible man I once was, I'm not wrapped around your finger anymore" I snap and she flinches. "You was never wrapped around my finger Scar, you was how you are now, everything is exactly the same as it was when I left" she says and I growl and throw the jacket across the room. "Fuck you Raelyn! Just fuck you! Nothing has changed no? Everything has fucking changed! My life is in shambles, I AM IN SHAMBLES. I can't eat, sleep, drink, I can't do anything without thinking of YOU. Stop going on like everything is fine Raelyn because you know full well that it isn't" I shout at her and she tenses. "Enough with the fucking pity party Phoenix! Wow I left, but who's fault is that huh? you're the one that said that deep down you feel it's my fault for what happened, you blamed me. An 18 year old girl  who had no control over what happened but no, it was my fault right? I was the one who came in to your life and fucked it all up wasn't I? Well i'm terribly sorry Phoenix, I'm sorry that I came barreling into your life, I'm sorry I put your son in danger, I'm sorry he got hurt and I'm sorry I didn't leave sooner!" she shouts at me, rage burning deep in those beautiful eyes of hers. "Don't you get it? You leaving was what caused the problem to fucking begin with! I realized how stupid I was being, I was a little late too realize it but the important thing is that I DID realize it.  I wanted you with me Raelyn! I wanted to be a family. You, me, Benji and Tyler, all together as a family but you left Raez, you left us all alone, we needed you so, so much. I pictured us together, I pictured so much for us but... you left. You were the one girl, the one WOMEN who made me feel anything other then self-pity or insecurity. You were the one women I trusted with my heart and... you broke it. It shattered into a million pieces the moment I read that letter, but I thought that maybe you'd come back, and fix it. Only you didn't come back, you left and after five years you appear and act indifferent about everything and I can't handle that Raelyn. I can't handle you treating me and my boy, or anyone for that matter as if we don't matter to you" I say, my voice ending in a broken whisper. My heart breaks more and more with each passing second. The more I stare at her the more I'm reminded of the past and I don't like it. I love Raelyn with all my heart but this pain inside me? It hurts too much and I'm tired. So tired... Sighing heavily I wipe my eyes and turn away from her, picking up the jacket I keep my head down looking at the words I had embellished in the back of it. She was my girl once upon a time... 

"Just go Raelyn, I'm tired and I'm sure you have other things to do" I say and I hear a feminine growl before the door slams and the walls rattle. The loud cursing coming from the corridor outside indicates that she's left. Sighing again I fall back on my bed and close my eyes. Now... time to sleep this  damn migraine off...

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