The Fighters Return Book Two

Phoenix's POV

My eyes widen at the scene before me, suddenly it's like i've been transported back in time to 5 years back, everything about her is the same, my breathing becomes uneven as I stare into the face of the one girl, no woman who both healed and broke me. The same long brown hair, the same flawless porcelain skin, the same beautifully unique purple eyes.  I swear this is my punishment, this woman in front of me is a painful reminder of what HAD been, more importantly, of what COULD HAVE been. "R-Raelyn?" I whisper hoarsely trying desperately to swallow past the lump in my throat. "I can assure you Scar, I'm no ones slut" she says her voice monotone and I lock eyes with her, that's when I see it, the pain, the heartache, the soul-shattering sadness, but I also see the coldness, the emptiness. Wherever she went, or whatever she did, changed her in more ways then one could imagine. "T-Tell me I'm dreaming, tell me this isn't real" I say my eyes flickering to Colton and Bear. They shake their heads telling me this is not a dream and I gasp. "Look I know you probably don't want to see me and that's fine I'm only here to get something off Colton actually" she says emotionlessly and I narrow my eyes at her. "WHAT! you can't leave mom" I hear my son shout and it's Raelyns turn to gasp. I turn my attention to my soft hearted 14 year old and my heart cracks, all these years that she has been gone,  I've been suffering, but so has my son...

"I-I'm not your mom bud" Raelyn says in a painfully weak voice and I growl, 'no fucking way is she pulling a stunt like this' I think to myself as I take a step towards her. "Yeah, well you're the only mom my boy has ever known, his biological mom nearly killed him remember?" I snap and she tenses, I can see emotions swirling in those purple oceans of hers. "Phoenix, maybe you shouldn't bring that up, it's not the time bro" Colton says and my attention snaps to him. "Really? So when is the time then? When she decides to pull another disappearing act?" I say receiving only silence as my answer. "That's what I thought, Ty you wanna let your parents talk in private for a minute" I say and he nods hesitantly, he sends me a questioning look and I know it's to do with the fact that I said parents, but there's a reason for that. He makes his way out the back door along with the guys, leaving just me and Raelyn in the kitchen. "Scar I'm not his mom you can't say that to him" she says and I narrow my eyes dangerously at her but she's not intimidated by me, I used to like that about her but at the moment it's just pissing me off. "Really? That's odd because in the letter you wrote me Raelyn you said you saw my boy as your own. That in itself means that you see yourself as his mom. Only moms, real moms don't abandon their children. Real moms don't leave in a blink of an eye never to be seen again. REAL  moms! don't break their kids heart!" I shout and she runs a hand through her hair. " I didn't abandoned anyone! I said in the letter that I would be back" she says and I shake my head. " You're right you did, and you know, the first month you were gone? I wasn't mad, sure I was hurting and I was lonely but I wasn't angry because I understood, I understood that I was to blame for you leaving. The first YEAR with no message, no phone call, nothing... I wasn't mad... But FIVE FUCKING YEARS RAELYN! Five years you've been gone, five years of heartache, five years of nightmares. FIVE YEARS of not knowing whether you were still breathing or whether you still felt the same as I did, whether or not you were safe. THAT'S what got me mad, and when my son used to ask every week whether I had heard from you, or whether I knew when you'd be coming back, or whether you still loved us my answer was ALWAYS the same, I don't know... That's what I used to tell my boy, and each time I told him that I saw it break him more and more each time. He has always seen you as his mother and I've always pictured you as his mother, something about that image just felt right, so don't come here and start telling me or my boy that you're not his mother because that's the only thing he's ever pictured you as, the only thing he's ever known you as. Don't take that away from him" I say and out of no where I feel tears gliding down my cheeks as I start to feel as if I'M the boy she abandoned. Raelyn stares at me as if  she can't believe what she's seeing but I don't care, she needs to understand that when she left it broke all of us. Raelyn clears her throat and nods "Ok Scar" she says but I shake my head at how empty her voice is, it's completely devoid of emotion. Running a hand through my hair I back up out of the kitchen. "I can't do this... I can't be this close to you and think straight" I say and an emotion flickers through her eyes but is gone before I can figure out what it is. Once I'm back in my room realization hits, 'JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, RAELYNS BACK"...