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xviii

Dear Newt,

I'm soo sorry. I am sorry for everything that I've done. I don't blame you for the way that you reacted, the thing I did was horrible. Wiping your memories... that mistake will always stay with me, no matter what I try to do to forget it.

I was selfish. I was jealous. I wanted you. Wow... that makes me sound like a super stalker but, you know what I mean. Newt... we weren't as close as you thought we were. Before I wiped your memories... Teresa turned you against me. I don't know why she hated me, I guess WICKED preferred me than her.

So when I would go to speak to you... you would just run off. I just wanted a friend and you looked like the perfect one. Then one day, WICKED took you into the lab and you came out as a new person. That was my chance, my chance for me to be part of your new life.

After that, we were inseparable. We would spend every day, every hour, every minute with each other. As we grew closer, the day you were meant to be sent up to the Glade came closer. The next thing I knew, I had to send you off.

They allowed me to control your memories and after what Teresa did to me... I wiped out all the memories expect the one with our ribbons. I know it was selfish of me to do, but I didn't think what I was doing.

I guess my emotions clouded my judgment.

I know I was stupid but I loved you and I still do... but I miss you a lot. I'm sorry and I hope you can forgive me.

Your Tommy.