Distance doesn't matter as long as we're loyal to each other.
- Unknown
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2016
Los Angeles
Good morning my love, I hope you had a wonderful slumber. I'm so sorry that I can't sleep with you, I know without the both of us being together at night it's hard for either one of us to get a good nights sleep. Even though I know that's not a problem for you now, it has been a problem for me lately.
Do you remember the night when you couldn't sleep and you needed to be close to me? I know, I know! there are a lot of moments like that but, this one specific moment I could never forget. We were both thinking about each others feelings. You were more reserved, and you were thinking about me and how I felt so you never wanted to ask but just like you, I was thinking about you. I felt responsible for making sure that you were always comfortable ...
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"Rihmeek I miss youuuu!" Nicki said whining.
"I miss you too babe. It's getting late though, the faster we go to sleep the faster we'll be able to see each other." I told her yawning.
"Nooooo! No, Rihmeek I can't sleeeeep!" She said continuing to whine.
"But Nicki it's getting late and... You want me to come over Nic?" I said sighing knowing that's exactly what she wanted.
"Yess!" she said and I could hear the excitement in her voice.
"Aight Nic am on my way." I said yawning getting out of bed.
"Rihmeek?" she called.
"Yes Nic?"
"Be careful on your way over here please. Amma leave the front door open, Remember to be quiet or else we're both in deep shit!" she reminded me.
"I'll be careful Nic, and I know Nic! This is like an every night routine for us."
"OK I'm just reminding you." she said giggling.
"OK see you in a minute babe. "
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I did everything to please you, but you never knew how lost I would be if you weren't like that, being clingy in your own way. You made me feel wanted or should I say needed, I felt loved. You always wanting to be in my presence brought joy to my heart. I loved being around you, I love when you kiss me, I loved when you talked to me, I even loved when you are being annoying. Because just like you, without you my world does not go around.
Remember that time when you had to go to Trinidad? You remember how upset you were because you had to leave me? I was upset also but I had to stay strong for you.....
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"I don't wanna go, Rihmeeeek." Nicki said holding on to me as she held back tears.
"Nic but you have to, don't you wanna see your family?" I asked rubbing her back to calm her.
Rubbing your back always calmed you down.
"Noooo! They can come here, I don't wanna leave you for three weeks! I'm going to miss you." she said now crying.
"Babe stop crying, look at me. Three weeks may seem like a long time now but you'll be back here in the blink of an eye. And I'll be waiting for you at the airport when you land. Amma be the first person you lay your eyes on." I said wiping her tears and kissing her forehead.
You know I hate to see you cry. When you cry, even when I'm not the cause of your tears I feel like I failed you.
"You promise?" she asked softly sniffling.
"I promise Nic-Nac." I said wiping the last tear, and extending my pinky to make our promise.
"OK... Bye Rihmeek." she said sadly walking off.
"It's never bye babe, remember it's see you later."
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I remember calling you every night to make sure you were fine. We fell a sleep every night on the phone together.
The short time we were apart was just a test of faith. It was only preparing us for the other times that we would be away from each other. Despite all the distance it meant so little to me because you meant so much. I tried to keep myself busy but I would always get distracted by thoughts of you.
I've always stayed strong through out the distance, and you would be the one to freak. But babe? I'm suffering now, I'm the one freaking I... I just can't go on without you. I just want to say that am very sorry, I can't help but to think its my fault-
"Sir-"
"Just give me one minute please?."
"But, sir-"
"I JUST SAID TO WAIT! JUST GIVE ME A FUCKING MINUTE!" I shouted with tears about to fall.
"I'm sorry for shouting, I know you don't like it when I shout." I spoke softly.
"I love you, mí armor. Please don't ever forget me." I said pressing a soft gentle kiss to her forehead, rubbing her cheek before leaving.
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I wasn't going to update tonight because I was so busy, but I decided to after all.
PS. I graduate tomorrow!!! 💃💃🎊 🎉
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