Miracles do happen

Chapter 6 i fucked up

I drive for about 30 minutes until I reach my destination I park my truck and start walking for about 6 minutes and reach my special spot. I look at the tree and climb the lowest branch and sit down and take in the scenery. A little river where the tree branch I'm sitting on goes far enough out it is over the river and hangs low enough that when I was little me, Ben and my dad went fishing while sitting on the branch I smile at the memory.

I look over at my 8 year old brother.

"Il race you to the pond" I smile my 5 year old toothy grin at my brother he nods and returns the grin.

"I'm gonna win" I shake my head and yell no you won't as I run as fast as my little body will take me just as I reach the pond and turn to my brother and stick out my tongue.

"I let you win" I laugh at him and shake my head no and look at my brother.

"Daddy hurry up your slow I wanna fish." I hear my dad laugh and mumble something about us being impatient I just wait as he waits for me and my brother to climb the tree and wait for my dad to hand us our fishing poles and worms and we bait. Our hooks and. Fish.

I smile at the flashback and look at the river and have another memory.

"I double dog dare you" I look at my brother who's serious I sigh and count one two three and jump into the river. I shake within the cold water it's freezing because I'm the stupid one who's jumping in a river in February. I reach the surface and run out shivering my brothers laughing I glare at him. I feel him wrap his sweater around me.

I think back that and remember That's the reason I had pneumonia for a week and a half. I remember while I was sick Ben would bring me Soup and hot chocolate and stuffed animals because he felt so bad because it was his fault. I climb down the tree and walk around to the back of it and find the spot in the tree I see what we carved when I was 14 and Ben was 17.

R.I.P

Matthew Lucas Smith

We Will Miss You Daddy

I start crying and think back to when we carved that it was 4 days after our dad died.

"Anna dad will always be with us no matter what in our hearts and in this spot" I look at him and take out my pocket knife and start carving into the tree.

"Sis what are you doing let me see."

"Not until I'm done" I finish carving and step away and look at Ben he's crying I hug him and cry also.

"Now dad will defiantly be here with us" I look at what I carved and think.

"Ben I want to show my kids about this place so when I die they can carve my name into the tree." I look at Ben.

"And when you die I'll carve your name into this tree." He laughs

"Who says I'm gonna die before you." I shrug

"You are older than me so"

I start crying and hug my knees and cry harder I hear my phone going off but just ignore it. I sit there for what seems like forever. I look up at the sky to see it's dark I grab out my phone and check the time 9:17. I check my calls and texts 5 missed calls two from hunter and. One from lee and two from carter I sigh. And walk back to my truck and drive back to the hospital.

Knock knock

"Come in" I walk in and look at hunter then bens bed to see he's asleep. I give her a weak smile she returns it. I sit down and rest my head on his bed. I hear hunter get up.

"IM going to give you a minute with him." I nod and give her my thanks and wait for her to leave.

"Hey Ben I know your sleeping but I'm sorry I fucked up I know I did but it's just I don't want to forgive. Mom I hate her for what she's put us through she haunts me still in my dreams and you told me she shouldn't hurt me anymore but she can I'm sorry I love you bub I need you please don't leave me I need you more than ever I know you will make it through this you have to."I sigh and kiss his forehead and hug him and leave and head home so I can get some sleep for school tomorrow.

I plug my phone in, change into pajamas, set my alarm and turn my phone on silent.