"Vi, just drop me by sa may park yung malapit sa subdivision nila Johan he just texted me"Nakangiting request ko sa kanya.Since napilit niya akong puntahan si Johan nagpahatid narin ako sa kanya sayang ang gas kung gagamitin ko ang sasakyan ko kasi sigurado naman akong ihahatid ako ni Johan pauwi.Ayaw na ayaw kasi niyang nagtataxi ako baka daw anong mangyari sa akin.
"I told you,hindi ka matiis nun.Well let's go"Sabi niya habang magsusuot ng seatbelt.
I smiled as an answer.And I promise magsosorry agad ako sa kanya.
Nakita ko si Johan nakaupo habang seryosong tinitignan ang cellphone niya.
"hmm Babe,kanina ka pa?I'm sorry for everything I said back then Johan,"sabi ko sabay yakap sa kanya.God!!I miss him!!!Kahit isang linggo lang kaming di nagkita sobrang namiss ko siya ang oa pero feeling ko parang isang taon ko siyang hindi nakita.
I broke the hug when I noticed hindi siya kumibo.
"Babe what's wrong?Nagtatampo ka parin sa akin?"I ask him curiosly sabay hawak sa kamay niya.
He didn't answer me.He is acting strange.Pinabayaan lang niya akong hawakan siya.He feels so distant.
"Johan,may problema ba?"Tanong ko ulit sa kanya.
"I'm sorry Cass,I can't do this anymore."
What?!Cass?Am I hearing it right?He just call me Cass?Hindi makapiwalang dinig ko.May kung anong nabuo sa damdamin ko.
"You're talking about last week right?Babe it's fine,ako dapat ang magsorry"
"That's not it,Cass I think we need to stop.Us? I can't do this anymore.We need to end this now before we can cause so much damage to ourselves-------
"Are you kidding right?If this is one of your make-up surprise babe it's not funny" Nanginginig na sabi ko sa kanya.
"It isn't, at hindi ito tungkol sa nangyari. Cass can't you see?We are not compatible.Marami tayong hindi nakakapagsunduan.We have different views in life.Our perception will never met and its useless to be together when we both know na hinding hindi tayo magkakaintindihan."frustrated niyang sabi sa akin.
I felt numb.Hindi mag-sink in sa utak ko ang sinasabi niya.Is this real?
"I can compromise,Johan we don't need to breakup.I'll try my best to understand you,I'll support you in everything.I promise I"ll be good this time"Hinang pakiusap ko sa kanya.Ayokong tanggapin ang mga sinasabi niya.Hindi ako papayag.I can still fix this.I will be if i have to.
"I'm sorry,but I think we need to focus on our individual life first,on our dreams."
"I thought it is our dream,sabi mo sabay nating aabutin yun ng magkasama?"hinang-hinang tanong ko sa kanya.
"I'm sorry,it's not you Cassandra. Its me.Ako ang may problema hindi ikaw.Its just that I can't see myself with you anymore"
Napatawa ako sa reason niya. I never thought that I would hear those cliched lines from him.
"I don't understand Johan"hindi ko na mapigilan ang hagulhul ko.
"Why?Sagutin mo ko ..wag mong gawin sakin to Johan please tell me you're just lying,Babe please let's settle this one not like this Johan please" pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya.He is crying too.His eyes looks soo tired parang walang tulog.May konting bigote din siya na parang nakalimutang alagaan ang sarili.He looks so tired and weary.
"I'm trying to be honest with you Cass because I owed it to you and you deserved to know what I truly feel, because I don't want to hurt you anymore.This is for the best Cass, believe me this is for the best, it should be for the best of us" He said while looking directly into my eyes.He stared at me like memorizing every detailed of my face. He caressed my face wiping those unending tears falling down while crying mapasinghap ako ng maramdaman ang init ng kamay niyang pumapawi sa mga luha ko.
Johan are those tears out of pity?If so, kahit awa ay sapat na sa akin wag ka lang mawala.
BINABASA MO ANG
Malaya
Short StoryLetting go from a painful serious long term relationship and suddenly falling in love so fast. Is it possible? Read the story and let us see.
