Malaya

Closure

I've been visiting Marie everyday. It has been a week since that incident happen. I dont know what happen but  now she will take the operation.

Parati din kaming nagpapang-abot ni Johan but we never talk after that incident. I set aside my pain because I want to be here with Marie. Gusto kong kalimutan yung pain at magfocus sa kalagayan ni Marie. I dont want to lose her. I wanna be with her as she fight.

It's been a week since Von went to France and we barely has communication. Nahihiya akong unang tumawag sa kanya kasi baka busy siya.

"You are looking at your phone again. He hasnt called you yet? Himala" Si Marie. She is now recovering and nagreready para sa operation niya nextweek.

I smiled painfully. I miss him. It's been only a week but I already miss him so bad. Ayoko namang maging clingy baka busy at tsaka I saw a post from Celine's Facebook nakatag kasi si Von. They are in a conference room halatang nagmemeeting . Von lean on Celine to tell something and Celine smile sweetly.It was a candid photo of them. I feel so jealous. Feel like all my energy is drained and gone.

"You know, pwede namang ikaw ang unang tumawag. You have the right anyway"

"Ayoko. At isa pa hindi naman niya ako girlfriend". Sagot ko kay Marie.

"What?? Are you real?? Hindi pa kayo sa lagay na yon? He is obviously smitten and head over heels for you Cassie" sabi niya na parang kilig na kilig.

"Sige ka baka maunahan ka ng iba jan nakaabang lang, hindi ko sinasabing si Celine ha" Marie continued.

"At sa lovelife ko pa ka talaga interesado? Focus on your recovery"

"Tss. Taray ah!! Tawagan mona kasi. Hindi uso pakipot ngayon mauunahan ka niyan kesa para kang timang kakaabang sa phone noh" at hindi talaga siya nagpapatalo sakin.

"Uso talaga yun, kaya nga diba naagaw mo si Johan" I retorted and its her turn to turn red.

"Stop it. Hindi kami ni Johan at ayoko na sa kanya we are just friends." she said.

Napatawa nalang ako. She is still obviously inlove kay Johan. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari .We just talked casually about what happen and then make joke about it. I guess our friendship is so powerful than everything else. I learned to forgive them.

"Fine Fine. Just wait I know Johan will come to his senses."

"Hindi na ako umaasa. Sapat na sa akin tong nandito siya sakin tabi bilang kaibigan." She smiled weakly.

Nagpaalam na ako kay Marie  na umuwi para na din makapagpahinga siya. As I am about to go inside my car Johan call me.

"Can I drive you home? I wanna talk to you Cass" Johan said pleading.

I know we need this talk. We need closure to be able to move forward.
The drive from the hospital to my condo is so quite. Walang sino mang nagsalita sa amin. Johan park my car at the park.
one block away from my condo.
We get-out of the car. This is where we used to hang-out with our midnight snack.

"I am too late If I say I still love you" He said with his small voice. Mapatingin ako sa kanya. I didnt answer.

"You love him dont you?" He smiled a faint one.

"Johan"

"Your eyes are sparkling everytime you look at him. Your smile says it all. You are happy with him you love him" he continue.

"Sobrang sakit ang makita kang masaya sa iba. Pero alam kong kasalanan ko. I will take responsibility of my own action and decision ."

" I love you. I am still so in love with you Cass but i am letting you go. " He is crying. Kitang-kita ko ang luhang lumalandas sa kanyang mga pisnge.

I am hurting too. Hindi ko akalain na dadating kami dito ngayon. Johan will always have a place in my heart. He will always remain special to me.

"Dont cry. Please be happy for me Cass, I want you to be happy kahit na hindi na ako"

I hug him. We cried for the last time as our love ended but our friendship will always remain.