Malaya

Forever Friends

Moving is never easy! I was lost. Feeling ko sobrang unfair niya. I can't accept it that he thinks we are not meant to be together kasi hindi kami nagkakaintindihan.Every Relationship has it's misunderstanding.And those 4 years means everything to me while to him its just nothing. Sobrang sakit to the point na hindi ko kayang ibangon ang sarili ko.

For two weeks pabalik-balik ako sa apartment niya at sa bahay nila.Hoping na baka nabigla lang siya. Nagmamakaawa na baka maitama ko pa.Na sa susunod ako na talaga ang mag-aadjust in order to save our relationship.But never niya akong hinarap.He never showed up.

I have to many questions and only him can answer it. He made me doubt everything about our 4 years relationship. Is everything he showed to me is even real? I can't imagine. At ayoko ko ring isipin.He made me questioned my self-worth that I am not loved.I just realised how dependent am I to him na yung nawala siya ay hindi ko na kayang bumangon pa.

For the last few weeks everything is so blurry. I spent my summer crying and drinking na hindi ko maalala na kumakain pa ba ako.Sila Vienna, Sarrah and Jenessa were always there for me.

"Hey,Cas lets go to tagaytay mag-oovernight tayo.Girls bonding muna tayo bago magpa-enroll" Sarrah said.

"We miss you girl. We miss the old you..We know you are still in pained and murning your heart but always remember that we are here. Mahal ka namin Cass. I hope you can see that we value you so much and nasasaktan kami sa tuwing nakikita ka naming ganyan" Vienna can't help but cry.Among us siya yung pinakaclose aa akin at pinakaiyakin.

Hindi ko mapigilang maiyak. I cried because for the past month that I can't able to see my worth, That for the past month that I was not able to love my self. They are always there.Never leaving me.Nasasaktan ako na nasasaktan din pala sila para sa akin.

"Guys naman.Walang iyakan please. Kareretouch ko lang eh. I really hate Johan talaga".naiiyak na din na sabi ni Jennesa.

For 4 years Johan had been part our group.Niligawan din ni Johan silang tatlo bago ako .They are so very protective of me and ako naman din sa kanila. I know Johan is also there friend that when Johan and I broke-up they also lose Johan, they also lose a friend.

They never say anything nung time na umiiyak ako at naglalasing.They just makes me feel that they are always there.Giving me time,giving my heart a time to grieve and accept that we can never be together again.

It hurts me see them crying and hurting for me. I love my friends.They already lose Johan cant let them lose me.