Malaya

The Truth Part II

We rush Marie to the nearest  hospital. I was just sitting there, nakatulala while waiting for the Doctor to finish whatever he is doing.

Ang daming nakakabit sa kanya. Because of her tumor the blood couldnt reach enough to her brain. She needs immediate operation pero masyadong mahina ang katawan niya to survive the operation because of her leukemia.

Hindi ko matanggap at maintindihan ang sinasabi ng Doktor I am just starring at him while my mind is still on Marie's condition. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat maramdaman ko.

She is an orphan. Her parents died when she was still 2 years old at ang Tita naman niya na hindi nakapag-asawa ang nag-aalaga sa kanya simula nung namatay ang kanyang mga magulang.But unfortunately, when we were in 4th year highschool her antie also died. Although she has fortune kasi may malaking trust fund ang iniwan sa kanya ng kanyang mga magulang at Tita na kahit di siya magtrabaho ay mabubuhay siya.

Seeing her lifeless lying in the hospital bed pains me. Although i hated her for what they have done, hindi mawawala sa akin na masaktan at mag-alala. I want her to live. Mas gugustuhin kong makita siyang malayo sa akin at buhay kaysa ganito. My heart is breaking seeing her like that. I am afraid of losing her forever.

"Hey, drink this" Si Von. I immediately called him when Marie collapsed.

Tinanggap ko ang dala-dala niyang bote ng tubig.

His warm arms tightly pulled me into a hug. And thats the cue I breakdown crying at him.

I dont know how long I've been crying at him, he's just calming me through gently tapping his hands on my back.

"Hush, baby, Dont cry, cant afford to see you like this. She will get this through, Okay?" He said while cupping my face and   wiping my tears with his thumb.
I am silently thanking that Von is with me here.

Pagkatapos ng ilang sandali kumalma na ako.Im glad Von is here with me. He's presence calm me. We are just sitting while waiting for the Doctor's instruction. When we heard the door's open. We saw Johan entering it.

Natigilan siya sa pagpasok . Halatang nabigla siya ng makita kami.Napunta ang mata niya sa kamay namin ni Von.

He looks so worried and stressed. Masyadong malayo sa hitsura niya dati. I've never seen him in this state he is always cool under pressure.

Suddenly, Von phone's ring. I know He is busy. Nasa gitna siya ng meeting ng tumawag ako kanina. I couldnt help but feeling guilty about it.

"Im gonna take this call, I'll be right back" He said while kissing my forehead. Napatango nalang ako sa kanya bilang sagot. And then he just nod at Johan. Naiwan kami ni Johan dito sa room.

"Cass, Im sorry We hide the truth from you" He finally speak while facing at me.

I didnt answer him. I just stared at him.

"She refuse the operation" Johan said. I can clearly see sorrow and pain in his eyes.

"Ayaw niyang magpaopera kasi iisa lang daw ang magiging resulta. I couldnt convince her. She just want to spend her remaining time as it is. She always follow you from afar because she missess you everyday just like me"

"Im sorry Cass, I dont know what to do. I couldnt tell you personally about Marie's condition. I know you will be hurt and be reminded of your father. Ayokong makita kang nasasaktan. Hindi ko kaya yun. I know how much Marie means to you"

"Bakit Johan, sa ginawa mo ba hindi mo ko nasaktan? Parang Pinatay mo ko Johan. Winasak niyo ko. Bakit? ngayon ba hindi ako nasasaktan?" I couldnt control my emotion anymore. For how many months I resented them. Pero paano naman ako? My pain now is very different. I feel so betrayed and unimportant.

"You dont trust me enough. Ano ba ako sa buhay niyo? Dont I deserve to know the truth? Kahit hindi bilang girlfriend mo, Magkakaibigan tayo. Somehow I deserve to know it as friends." Hindi ko mapigilang sumbatan siya.

"Im sorry. I am so sorry. This is the last thing I want to see .I dont want you hurting and crying. This breaks me Cass. I only did this to protect you because i love you so much" Johan came to me. He is hugging me. And I cant feel anything.

I went home.I couldnt take everything at once. I am deeply hurt and in pain. Sobrang sama ng loob ko sa kanila.

Naabotan kami ni Von na nasa ganun sitwasyon.
I dont know what he's thinking. Tahimik lang siya simula kanina.

"I have to leave for France again." He breaks the silence.

Napatingin ako sa kanya.

"Im sorry, I have an agruement with Dad. He's been nagging me to fly to France. There was an emergency in our branch kagabi pa actually. And he wants me to leave immediately but I dont want to and I thought can handle it here. But it was serious i need to fix it personally." He further explains.

"I know you are worried for me. I am fine Von. " I assured him. Alam ko naman na ako ang dahilan kung bakit sila nagtatalo ng daddy. I know him too well. Ayaw niya ng malayo sakin. I can clearly see his efforts to be with me all the time but he has a big responsibility.

"I'll be back as soon as I can" He said while holding my hand firmly.

With all that is happening I have realized something. The pain that i am feeling now is the pain of betrayal of friendship. I only see Johan now as a friend. I feel betrayed na hindi nila ako pinagkatiwalaan .I deserve to know the truth about Marie's condition.

I have forgiven them already for what they did but my heart is still aching for what they hid from me.

Napatingin ako sa kamay namin ni Von ngayon. Now my heart is beating for someone else.