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SS: POEM

Everytime my eyes land on you,
I smile and blush and I fall through. Through the wall I built and hid away, ...wait a second, let me explain.
You see Everytime I fall in love,
it never lasts long, it never made home run.
They always tell me I'm not worth it, and move on to the next, while my wall gets thicker, I was becoming a wreck.
Everyone hates it, it's just a part of me. They say that I wasn't normal, that I needed Therapy. They got what they wanted though and it only became worst. I once again hid my feelings though they wanted to burst.
So here I am staring at a guy, the one who's dark eyes shine, hiding my feelings everyday, but my feelings wanted to come and play.
Cracks and holes came on the surface, I tried to hold it back.
But it only made it worse, control is what I lack.
I tried to tell myself to stop and hold myself back, but no because my surface gave it's last crack.
I fell in love, harder than before, I didn't know what to do, this feeling was unsure.
Outside, I was calm and silent, relaxed and human. Inside I was giggly, in love, and loosin'
Loosing control, control to myself, if I didn't have it you'd be against the shelf.
I am just kidding, just wanted to make you blush. Did it work?! Did I make you gush?!
Anyways, back to point, that part is true. Without mt self control, this is what I'll do:
I'll hold you, I'll kiss you-probably just your cheek. You'll make me squeal and laugh, screech and squeak. I'll make you be sick of me, my presence and my words. You'll want to go outside and listen to the birds.
But that is the truth, the words inside my mind...except for my dreams, that make me scream inside.
Break a bone, loose a life, scream a scream, bleed, this is my nightmare, these are my dreams.
I always loose a love one, they make me watch wide eyed, I wake in the morning, with the killer knife.
It scares me inside to have these dreams again, but don't worry, I'm a grown man!
But thank you for reading, I love you more than you know, I'll keep my guard down, I'll keep my emotions low.
Please don't forget me, I'll never forget you. Unless I get amnesia out of the blue. But hopefully your name will echo in my head.
So eventually one day I can have you in my bed ;)
Ha! I'm kidding, I'm way too young! What the hell is going in my head, what have I sung?!
Never mind, I'm saying I love you. I hope you last through your days, boo. This is the end of this some what long poem...
Hopefully one day you read this and understand what I'm showin'.

~Otero S.

DEDICATED TO TRL