How I Feel - (A Chris Brown Love Story)

Behind Closed Doors.

B.O.B ft Hayley Williams - Airplanes / Chris Brown - Say Goodbye

Cassie's POV.

I wasn't surprised, an empty house to come home to again. Dad is hardly home; therefore he's missed out on most of my life. He tries to make up for it by showering me with expensive gifts and new clothes; however that would never be enough to fill up the space left in my heart. The place that yearns for a Dad that loves you unconditionally, no matter what happens. Not a Dad who just rejects your Mum out of his life. Most importantly a Dad that's always there for you: that's the type of Dad I want.

My phone buzzed, saving me from my thoughts drowning me. I looked down to a message from Derrick:

Can you call me?... I've run out of credit.

Ugh. No kiss, just a full stop. Typical. And anyway, if he really wanted to talk to me, he would buy credit. KMT.

Ring, Ring...Ring, Ring.

"Hey babe, err thanks for calling me," he said, his voice sounding on edge. Lately, we didn't speak on the phone- nothing really to talk about. What happened to the time when me and him shared common interests, when we actually enjoyed each other company? Gone. Thrown out with the other rubbish in the trash cans.

"It's alright, so... you wanted me to call you?" This was so awkward.

"Err yes; I wanted to ask you something...?"

"Yes..." I said a minute later, as he still didn't ask the question.

"Look. I know our relationship isn't the best in the world, but i think I have the solution to make it work."

"Ok...Tell me then," I said. A big grin spread across my face, I was actually impressed that he was trying to make our relationship better.

"Erm. Talk dirty to me or touch yourself- which ever you prefer- I don't mind," was the foolish statement I got at the end of the other line.

"What?" I asked unsure if my ears were deceiving me.

"I said you should talk dirty to me, I'm here at home, laying on my bed bored, so I thought that you would be able to get me excited again." He replied with frustration running through his voice.

"No. I can't believe you. Who or what do you think I am?" I shouted down the phone, flustered, "Consider this relationship over."

"What? Why are you angry for?" He asked confused.

"Here I am thinking you were going to apologise, thinking you was got to try and make an effort for once in your life and you come out with this BS. Do you know what I don't have to explain myself to you so...Bye!" I fumed, as I ended the call.

I made my way upstairs so I could IM Libby.

Cassie♥'zU: Can u believe it? I'm still fuming... and a bit upset :(

BubblyLib: Don't worry about... He isn't worth getting upset over

Cassie♥'zU: I know... It's just that how could I be so stupid? To think i thought he actually cared about me.

BubblyLib: Don't be to hard on yourself, u should 4get Derrick and move on.

Cassie♥'zU: Ur right, I should

BubblyLib: I know :) What do you think about that Chris guy?

Kimmie♥'zU: He's an absolute jerk.