Do or Die

10.

//Chris

Walking back into the house the next day, I was shocked to see suitcases sitting by the stairs. I knew not coming home last night would probably make her mad but not this mad. I frantically jogged up the stairs and checked our room first.

She wasn't there so I went to Carter's room. There she was, throwing Carter's things into her bag. Carter was in her crib, playing with a few of her toys, not paying her any attention.

"What the hell is going on?" I got her attention.

"You fucking cheated Chris!?" She turned around to face me, her eyes bloodshot red.

I was at a lost for words. I didn't know how to react or what to say. I swore that she would never find out about what happened but now she has. I don't know how, but she's pissed.

My mind was all over the place trying to figure out how to answer her. I damn sure didn't want her to take my baby and leave so I needed to think of something quick.

"What are you talking about Zonnique!?" I questioned knowing exactly what she was talking about.

"Is that why you didn't want me talking to your moms neighbor!?" She stepped closer to me. "You knew she was gonna tell me!"

She was right. I knew my mom and Ms. Anne were close so of course my mom had told her about what I had done. I confessed what I did to my mom and begged her not to tell Zonnique. I couldn't lose her and I still can't. My mom always pressed the fact that she would tell Zonnique if I didn't.

"Baby just calm down and let's talk." I reached out to grab her hand.

"Don't fucking touch me!" She snatched away.

"Zonnique.." I sighed. "Hear me out baby."

"When Chris!?" She folded her arms.

I sat down in the chair and held my head in my hands. "A-Around the time we first moved into the old apartment... you know shit was stressful and we weren't in a good space."

"So you go and stick your dick into some other bitch!?" She yelled, hitting me upside my head. "Who the fuck was she!?"

"Zo that don't matter." I looked up at her. "I fucked up okay? I know that and I'm so sorry baby. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I should've told you when it happened but I was scared. I didn't want you to leave me."

"I can't even look at you right now." She said through gritted teeth.

At that, she turned around and kept packing Carter's things. I hurriedly stood up and grabbed the bag from her. She immediately started punching my chest, letting all her anger out. I tried dodging them but they kept coming full force.

Finally, she completely broke down. Her punches stopped and she just buried her face in my chest. I held her close to me and rubbed her back while she cried. I felt like shit. I never meant to hurt her like this, especially not over a little mistake.

"Was I not good enough?" She sobbed into my chest. "I know we were arguing and stuff but I didn't think you'd go out and do that."