•Just hopeful•

Chapter 13: complicated society

Today was supposed to be the second day of chemotherapy but they decided to do it on another day because of what happened yesterday.
Hunter just woke up, I was staring blankly at the curtain and pressing the tube that is connected to my hand from time to time then looking at the liquid stop then continue.
"Morning Meredith, how are you?" Hunter said in a deep morning voice
"Oh hey, good morning, I'm okay,"
"Aren't you supposed to be doing the chemotherapy today?"
"Yeah but I'm not going to do it today, it got postponed because yesterday I passed out and I had pain in my chest so they had to cancel it for today and they're probably going to do it tomorrow just because I've asked them to,"
"Oh really? How come you never came to wake me up? Are you okay though,"
"I'm okay now thanks, and I didn't wake you up, I wanted you to rest,"
"What? Why though?"
"Because you just came to the hospital and just got injured from a car accident? I don't think it needs explaining anyways,"
"I really hope you get well soon,"
"Thanks, I hope you do too."

Another video of me, I'm used to it already, unknown phone calls, unknown messages, unknown everything, and this "unknown" I have to figure out myself... I open the second part of the video:
"Hey Meredith, yes you Meredith Hayes, all of us have something to tell you, or let's just name them rules.
1- You do not mess with any one here at school
2- absence from school is not the key to getting rid of the people there
3- Stop being so rude
4- Stop bullying and pushing me off the stairs
5- Don't act/ be fake
And now some facts that everyone has realized about you:
1- you're a big bully
2- ugly
3- stupid
4- skinny
5- dramatic
6- worthless
7-fake
8- messed up
9- unwanted
10- loser
I think there's no need to continue because I won't stop if I listed everything, these things are part of you believe it or not."

It hurts so much to be broken and then one day something bad happens and the only thing that you say is that you're used to it. Since I've moved, I've been having issues everyday, trying to hide my emotions in every way possible, then just let it all out at night. These days, I've been crying a lot that now, my eyes are red and my head is aching.
It got harder and harder for me to breath, I was breathing heavily.
"Meredith!" Hunter exclaimed
He got up quickly with his elbow walking stick going as fast as he can in order to call the nurse. The nurse came in quickly with the oxygen mask and put it over my mouth and put the strings around my ears. My eyes already closed, I slowly started breathing normally until I fell asleep, Hunter was sitting beside me, worried and trying to call my parents but there was no answer from both of them.
*message notification(Hunters phone)*
"Hey it's me Emily, how are you? I have something really urgent to tell you, please answer as soon as possible,"
Hunter: "Hello, I'm good thanks how about you? And what is it?"
"Did you see the videos that went viral about your sister and all the bullies that are attacking her, I think that maybe the reason her cancer is getting worse because she's not only having cancer but maybe she's going through stress and depression too, please take care of her,"
My mom and dad just sent me a message saying that they're going to be with grandma for a week before they come back, meanwhile they left 300$ for Hunter and I for the whole week, in case we need food, clothes, or essentials.
I've been stressed out lately. Honestly I don't know what I did wrong to deserve all these things happening to me.
Everything looks so wrong nowadays, people get bullied, and countries get crowded with negativity, the world is a mess, we are all human in the end no matter what. We are all souls that struggle through similar things, sadly nobody acts like a human, everyone is so judge mental, and it's depressing to see how a 6 year old knows better than adults because a 6 year old won't compare people through the religion or looks or even color, younger people only care about the personality of a person and so should we.
But I'll keep walking and walking until I find the light that gets me out of the darkness, there's always hope no matter how many problems you have, I'll be hoping, just hoping.