New life, New everything. So the only thing i know now is that I'm in danger, but what I also know is that it's only the beginning of everything. I'm scared but I have a strong feeling that my grandpa is with me in each and every moment. I'm saying everything as if it's the 100th time I repeat it even though it's only the first, I've reached to a point that I'm used to getting hurt, feeling sad, and my life changing dramatically all at once. Today I found out that I'm diagnosed with leukemia, it's a type of cancer of the blood or bone marrow. Yeah, I'm diagnosed with cancer, I can't believe it either.
Best friend, where did you go? I've been searching for you a long time ago. Best friend, am I still there in your heart or are we now just torn apart? Best friend, I am desperate and I need your help, remember all the times we cried and laughed together ? memories hurt the most if the one that made them with you left everything behind. Best friend, please don't walk away, because if you do my life will fade. I need you, I can't handle everything without anyone beside me , I can't do it, my happiness is somewhere in your pocket but I just can't get it without you being there. Best friend, please don't change, please don't walk away, please don't give up on me, please, I miss you... I really want to say those words to my best friend but I can't because I know it'd become worse, she probably forgot about me anyways.
*phone notification sound*
"Well you're probably wondering how we got your phone number aren't you? Well you don't have to tell us twice really haha. Just ask your "best friend" Chloe, Oh but she's great to us, I'm afraid you'll have to leave her, poor unwanted girl :("
I felt like I was dizzy, the thoughts were running through my head, and my blurry eyesight made me feel sleepy, I can hear the heart monitor go Beep beep slower and slower until I closed my eyes unconsciously and fell into deep sleep.
Hunter: "Hey mom, I think Mere might need a therapist "
Mom: "a therapist why? What's wrong with her?"
Hunter: "I think it'll be hard for her to be hopeful struggling with cancer you know..."
Mom: "I'm really worried about her I think we should get her a therapist too"
Hunter: "Mom I'm worried "
Mom: "everything's going to be okay "
*doctor knocks the door and comes in*
Doctor: hello, sorry to disturb your conversation but I have good news, the cancer cells in her body are only just starting to grow, it'll be a couple times of chemo then she'll be alright I hope
Hunter: chemo?! Doesn't that burn?
Doctor: it's the only way out of cancer...
Mom: thanks Doctor , let's just hope for the best
* one hour later *
Me: "H-unter "
Hunter: "yeah? "
Me: "I'm sorry"
Hunter: "For what?"
Me: "Letting everyone down and being useless"
Hunter: "you're talking nonsense! You've got to be kidding, are you okay?"
Me: "other than the leukemia I'm fine I guess but you know leukemia hurts and I feel as if my back hurts and I think I know why. You know when someone starts stabbing you in the back? it's the same exact feeling... "
"Oh Chloe where did your feelings go?" I said in a low voice
Hunter: "the doctor said you'll be fine, the cancer cells are only just starting to grow from his knowledge, don't worry, I'll be here okay? "
Me: "thank you, okay. Wait wait why aren't you in school"
Hunter: "mom said I should stay here with you, and no way you're staying alone"
Me:" Uh- Oh! My hand is bleeding all over the sheets"
*Hunter runs out to call the nurse*
The nurse is so nice, I wish there were more people in this world like her. She cleaned my hand with some rubbing alcohol then wrapped my hand with a piece of cloth. I'm not sure where the blood came from, that's odd.
Nurse: "Meredith, you have a visitor, can I let her in?"
Me: " Uh a visitor? Did you see where my brother went?"
Nurse:" he said that he'll go to get some food for you"
Me: " I guess you can let them in"
Nurse:" I'll go get them"
Me:" thanks"
*a few moments later*
I'm in absolute shock at the moment, I cannot believe who walked in.
Savannah: "You took everything away from me"
Me: " Go away from me!"
Savannah:" you took everything away from me!" She threw the water at me and I gasped
Me:" Oh. My. God, GO AWAY WHAT DID I TAKE FROM YOU"
Savannah:" you took my best friend stupid!"
Me:" you have absolutely no right to throw anything at my, I am on the hospital bed first of all! Second of all Chloe is all yours and she didn't even bring up your name when I first saw her just leave me alone!" I cried .
Savannah:" NO I WONT LEAVE YOU IN PEACE, NOW EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY IS DISAPPOINTED IN ME SHE USED TO BE PART OF MY FAMILY SHE WAS SO CLOSE TO ME AND EVERYONE THINKS I AM THE ONE THAT IS WRONG IN EVERYTHING, I WISH THAT YOU'D DIE YOU U-"
*Door opens*
Hunter: " STAY AWAY FROM MY SISTER YOU MONSTER!" *pushes Savannah* YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO DISRESPECT MY SISTER, TO THROW WATER AT HER? I WAS WATCHING EVERYTHING"
Savannah: " You think you have the right to push me? Oh my god UGH"
Hunter: " GET OUT I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!"
*Savannah leaves and slams the door*
Me: "thank you so much I don't know what to say!" I said
Hunter: *wipes my tears* " I didn't do anything really and I'm so angry and mad what's up with her and her ugly soul!"
Me: " Ugly souls with empty brains"
Hunter: "Let's not think about her anymore, I got you some food that the doctor recommended, you should eat, you lost 5 pounds in just two days"
Me:" thank you, I will, I appreciate you and everything that you do"
Hunter: " No need to thank me really"
YOU ARE READING
•Just hopeful•
CasualeMeredith Hayes was always known as the bright and bold girl since childhood but as she grew up things started changing, she had two battles to face, reality and what goes up in her mind. Will life change her or is she strong enough to change her lif...
