To the one I’ll always love,
You were my first love and I knew that it was too good to be true.
I was young and naïve; high on love for the first time. But, I was smart enough to know that nothing ever stays perfect for a long time; and I was right.
I remember lying down at night with my phone clutched in my hand as I thought of you.
The hours would tick by and I’d still have my mind wandering. What you were doing, who you were with even when you were hundred of miles away.
I remember trying to get a hold of you.
Hundred of calls and text messages left unanswered was just setting me up to be okay without you.
The heartache I felt dismissed as the days, sometimes weeks, passed. I tried to keep my thoughts but not being able to see you or know where you left me exhausted with shaky hands and a broken heart.
I was a ticking time bomb. I was angry, depressed, and sad. My emotions were haywire and it was because of you. I wanted you feel just once of the heartache and pain you cause me but I wanted to take the pain away from you so I was torn. I love you, but at the same time I also hate you.
