Crybaby | M.M (Editing)

Chapter 8

As I was walking down the sidewalk towards my house twirling bits of my newly dyed hair, A colorful flyer stapled to a pole on the other side of the road caught my eye; I skipped across looking both ways and stopped to look at it.

It read "You are invited to the national "Fall Carnival", There will be fast rides, delicious food, live entertainment, and anything else you can imagine, Starts Friday, September 15th-25th."

I loved carnivals so much ever since I was a little girl, they are basically like heaven to me, But I've always gone to them alone, Anytime I rode a ride that required two people I'd have to ride with a complete stranger that would immediately walk off once the ride was over from the way I looked to them.

I really wanted to go to this carnival, I would just hate to go alone once again this year, I was really thinking about maybe inviting Austin to go with me, but I'd sound like a complete idiot  inviting him and I've only known him for a couple of days, but then again he did say he wanted to get to know me better, and this would be a perfect opportunity for that to happen; I'll decide on Monday if I should.

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"Okay, Melanie." I thought to myself. "Just go up to Austin and ask him to go to the carnival with you." I felt my palms getting sweaty again while my cheeks flushed a bright shade of rose red.

"No don't! Do you want to make a fool out of yourself? He's obviously going to say no." The bad side of me told me.

"Don't listen to her Melanie! He won't be creeped out, I know you're pretty shy when it comes to boys." the good side said.

"Yeah, No shit." I whispered to myself quiet enough for nobody to hear but the voices in my head.

"You can do it! Just be brave and ask him, You've got nothing to lose!" The good side finally said and like that, I didn't get any more responses. 

It was weird yes, I had a good voice and a bad voice in my head that helped me make decisions in difficult situations I couldn't handle alone. But as long as the advice is helpful and doesn't make the situation worse, then I don't really mind it.

My legs shook as I took a few steps towards Austin's locker where he was standing and playing on his phone considering we had about a few minutes before first period began.

I slowly walked closer to him and once I was close enough, I gently tapped his shoulder which startled him a bit and caused him to gasp; He turned around to face me with a relieved look on his face.

"Oh, it's only you." He chuckled with relief.

"Sorry I didn't mean- "

"It's quite alright Melanie." He insisted while putting his phone into his back pocket. "How's your morning darling?" I blushed at the nickname.

"I-It's going quite alright!" I said trying not to sound nervous. "And yours?" I asked.

"Mine is pretty good!" He nodded. "But the fact that its Monday doesn't excite me one bit." He said in an annoyed tone.

"Agreed! I can't wait for this week to be over!" I said with a smile escaping my lips, thinking about what I was going to ask him.

"Me too Melanie, Me too." He leaned against his locker looking into my eyes.

"Yeah well um." I looked down while playing with my pink overall strap. "Speaking of the end of the week." I said nervously.

"What about it darling?" He asked while raising an eyebrow in curiosity. 

I felt more sweat on my forehead as I ran my fingers through my curly pink and black hair, Feeling the most embarrassed that I've ever felt in a long time, I was basically about to ask this guy out on a date for gods sake, I've never done this before, I couldn't make myself look bad in front of him.