Rehearsals for my engagements were underway and I can't say I'm not overwhelmed! Caesar's Palace is top priority right now, it's a huge deal! I will be performing 4 nights this May for my Dreams tour and it really is an honor to be asked. Instead of everyone coming with me, I'm alone and it feels weird. I guess it's not a bad feeling because I like my alone time, I like doing things by myself but I miss my family so much. Aria has school and I wouldn't feel right pulling her out for rehearsals.
"Break an arm, mommy!" She squeaked into the phone after a very long day.
"I think you mean break a leg, honey" I say, laughing.
"Oh yeah...well break that too" she says, truly believing that sentiment was helpful.
"Thank you, Aria. I appreciate it"
"You're welcome. I love you"
"I love you too baby"
"When are you coming home?"
"Soon, my darling"
"Okay. Daddy says I have to do my homework"
"That's a very good idea. I will be back before you know it, okay?"
"Okay, I just miss you. Will you hurry?"
This part always breaks my heart. "Yes, I will try to be as fast as possible. I will do my very best" We say our I love yous once more and the phone is handed off again. "Who am I speaking with now?" I ask.
"Willow!"
"Hello, Willow! Are you being a good girl for daddy and Auntie Karen?"
"Of course mommy! I'm an angel, remember?"
"How could I forget?" I say.
"Mommy?"
"Yes, sweet girl?"
"Is Aria in trouble?"
"No, why would she be?"
"She told you to break your arms and your legs! That's mean!"
I stifle a laugh. "There's a saying in show business. Break a leg. It's for good luck"
"That's not very lucky"
"You're right, Willow. I guess it's not"
"I will think of something else today and tell you when you go to work again."
"I would love that. Think of something very lucky and send all of that magic to mommy for her shows"
"Are you nervous?"
"A little"
"Don't worry. You sing so pretty!"
"Thank you, my girl" I say, a smile spread across my face.
"I'm going to go bug my sister now" she tells me and I laugh. "Bye mommy. I love you"
"I love you too" The phone is abandoned and I'm in no man's land for a couple of very long minutes but I don't want to hang up. I sit the phone down and put it on speaker, fixing things up in my hotel room. Finally, Lindsey picks up.
"Steph, still there?"
I scramble to the phone, practically throwing down all I had in my hands onto the bed. "I am, I'm here" I tell him.
"I miss you so much"
"I will be back soon. You know I miss you too"
"Is Lori keeping you company?"
