The Lovely Lie of "I'm Okay."

Him: No Sleep

Nights like these are the worst.

My mind is running a million  miles an hour and I can't get her out of my head. I've never been this crazy about her. 

She came to my mind in the middle of class and it wasn't a good feeling, so I just left to find her. It seems like that was a hundred years ago although it was just earlier today. 

I glance at the clock and It says 11:56 p.m. the last time it said 9:25 p.m. 

Such a bad boy Wills. 

I jump out of bed and think of all the places I could go. 

Ella's? Probably not. 

Skate Park? At night? Seriously Noah, do you want to get jumped? 

Then it hits me. 

I grab a blue stone off of the pile of others on my dresser, my keys and hoodie as I tiptoe down the stairs and out the door. Mom would murder me if she knew what I was doing. She doesn't like me going out at night without her knowing but I couldn't tell her where it is I'm going. 

I get to my car and decide its a warm enough night to walk, considering it's just a five minute walk, plus I don't want to wake Mom with the engine of my Mustang. 

Gazing at the stars, I know exactly where I'm going. I've walked this road too many times, I can find my destination just by the placement of the stars. 

I can name every single one, but Libra constellation, and the Big Dipper are my favorite. I was born in September, so of course Libra is my favorite. 

Such a girl thing to think Wells. 

In just a short, few minutes, I face a tall iron fence. Pulling out my phone, and turning on the flashlight app, I make my way to the beautiful cherry blossom tree planted in the middle of the graveyard. 

I reach up and pluck the prettiest blossom I see, and place it on the grave placed under the tree. 

Here Lies Our Beautiful Daughter, Our Strong Warrior, and Our Blossom. 

Rest in Peace bright gem. 

SAPPHIRE EVELYN GRIMES

1998-2015

Tears stream down my check and I'm flooded with memories of her. Us. Everything from the happy days, to the sad, to the worst day of my life. It was all my fault.

I told her I was done. That if she wouldn't stop hurting herself for me, that I'd leave. So I did. I didn't know she'd die in a car accident the very next week.

The therapist told me over and over that what happened wasn't my fault. She told me that it was a dangerous relationship and that I did my best. I had told her mother and everything. Sadly, her mother would rather be whoring around than to care about her own flesh and blood. 

Then, they were arguing in the car about me. Saph told her mom that she was going to stop for me, but her mom said she was pathetic for starting in the first place. That she was worthless. 

"At least someone cares about me." she had replied. 

Her mom told the police that she then looked over to Sapphire and slapped her, running a red light without even knowing. 

Another car T-boned the passenger side, killing Sapphire instantly. Her mom didn't even have a single scratch mark. 

I resented her, but I still felt guilty. I couldn't save Sapphire. 

I loved her, still to this day, but I needed to let this pain go and forgive myself. 

I place the sapphire stone on the base of her grave right next to all the others. Kissing the top of her stone, a final tear rolls down my check as I walk back towards my way home. 

Hearing a rustle of leaves, I turn and give a last glace to see a beam of moonlight shining down on her stone. I smile but shiver as a familiar voice fills my ear. 

"Noah, save her. She needs you now."  

I turn to my right where the voice comes from, but nothing is there. My mouth hangs open. 

That was Sapphire. 

A cold wind blows pass me as the moonbeam goes away. I open the fence gate and run all the way home. 

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