to kim taehyung | v

二十七

lost

hye rin's point of view

"jeon jungkook," i faced him with a glare. "i won't do it." i smirked. jungkook's smile that creeped me out finally disappeared as if he expected me to do it like i didn't have a choice.

"you're really selfish. why did i just realize that now?" i told him. "yeah, you're right. but what you didn't realize is that this selfishness of mine can bring you down."

all of a sudden, he got up and pushed me back to my hospital bed and held my wrist down violently. "if that door was open, what do you think would've happened by now?" jungkook's gaze changed.

"i can tell them they misunderstood the situation anyway." i tried arguing back. "really? even if i opened that door and kissed you for real?"

and then it hit me. if he did that, i don't have anything to support my claims if someone saw us. or even just taehyung. my wrist started to hurt and that pain got my head back into the game. but even so, i was left speechless. i couldn't argue back anymore.

jungkook leaned closer. so close that i could feel his warm breath. this scene was so familiar. jeon jungkook never seemed to have changed except for the fact that's like written on his face that nothing will stop him now.

"five years ago, you rejected me but at the same time, five years ago, i became your first kiss." i heard him gulp. i could tell that he was hiding his nervousness. i wanted to tell him that it doesn't have to be like this but i couldn't bring myself to do so. he was too close. and any move i make.. can remake the same scene from five years ago.

"five years after that, we meet again. and now, our lips meet again too."

jungkook pressed his lips against mine.
this feeling. i hate it so much.

i tried getting him off me. i hit his chest and he finally gave in. i got up and slapped him. "who are you?" i looked at jungkook with tears in my eyes as if i didn't know him anymore. i made my way towards the door and saw a familiar face standing right in front of me.

he didn't even look at me. instead, he was glaring at jungkook. "taehyung," i tried grabbing his arm as he walked furiously over to jungkook to prevent commotion inside this small room.

taehyung grabbed jungkook's collar and punched him without hesitation. i shrieked in terror. "jungkook," taehyung cried. "i let all your nonsense slide because you're my brother. i ignored her so that you could finally show her the real you that could make girls fall in love. because i didn't want her to know you're this horrible. because i longed for your own happiness. i thought you'd stop after i told you that i knew everything, but this.. this is what you give me?"

"the moment hyerin started loving you, was the moment me being your so-called brother ended." jungkook replied.

i could hear the ceiling fan of the room running. people outside chatting. then everything went extremely silent to me. i glanced over taehyung and jungkook.

was i the reason for all of this? is this why people hate falling in love? because the moment you fall, your life cracks. it feels just like that. i feel like the purpose of my existence was to break people away from each other. it was as if it wasn't jungkook's fault anymore. it was my fault for existing.

"is that so?" taehyung asked like he wanted jungkook to say no and that this was just all a nightmare but we've finally woken up.

but that wasn't the case.

we were living in our own nightmare and there's no ending to it. my chest was empty. my mind was blank.

everything stayed that way until someone suddenly came inside the same room we three were in.

it's her again.

"you ruined my life, and now i'm gonna ruin yours." i heard a clicking sound. i couldn't figure out what it was. i couldn't think. i was too frustrated.

"ji yeon, NO!" jungkook's scream woke me up and i saw ji yeon holding a gun which was pointed right at me. i saw her press the trigger. the gunshot didn't surprise me.

it was taehyung
that surprised me.

do you know that certain point of life when you just feel tired of crying and trying? i hit that point of life. the monsters in my head were just screaming too loud that i couldn't even protect the ones that i love. all i do is ruin their lives. everything else in my life came crashing down.

the brave me was gone.

taehyung was the one who made me feel stronger no matter how much i have cried. it has always been him since yesterday, even today and especially tomorrow.

his smile and laughter always cheered me up and the lies he made weren't just any lies that protects himself. he was my shield. he hid his feelings most of the time because he was the one who cared the most.

please tell me that i can wake up
with him by my side.

if not, i would rather stay asleep for the rest of my life.
without him, my life's meaningless.

kim taehyung.

"HYUNG! NO!"

it hasn't been that long since we've met after so many years. why did it have to be you?

of all people.. why?

vthelion21: remember to smile, ok ??

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❝ author's note ❞

hello,, author mae is back after such a long break !!! haha, please don't expect me to update fast. i really feel bad for those who have been waiting for this chapter.

i didn't really keep my promise because it's already the holidays and there's no school. yes, i've been busy with school and all but i didn't bother to update.

but please don't get me wrong, :-( i didn't abandon my stories. i've been procrastinating ever since then and i couldn't bring myself to finally update because i couldn't think of any plot for this chapter hehe.

sorry !! remember to vote & comment !!
thank you so much for staying just for this long-waited update which may disappoint y'all because it's really short and lame. ugh,, i'm such a bad author.

— mae —