Wild Heart

The Fallout

-Juliette-

It has been exactly two weeks and three days since Eloise left and I stopped talking to Dorian.

I sat in the room surrounded by my loneliness, my eyes were sore from crying and I hadn't bothered to even go into work (not that they'd notice if I was absent or not).

My lack of friends had crippled me to solitude and ironically all I wanted to do was call Eloise to vent about Dorian, and on the flip side all I also wanted to do was call Dorian to vent about Eloise.

I knew Eloise would Here me out...But embarrassingly I wouldn't call her and admit that my relationship was all just a sham.

Clementine was kind enough to come and check on me from time to time and as grateful as I was for her company and concern I couldn't help but feel uneasy as I knew she was more than likely reporting back to one if not both of them.

I sat on the edge of the bed and sighed heavily as I shook my head, in truth I was the one to blame for this entire fallout.

No I didn't ask for Dorian to treat me like one of his pack members instead of his Luna to be, that was entirely on him...but I should have been more assertive to be included in his life.

Instead I've merely been ghost lighting as this soon to be mindless figure to have by his side. I should've let my feelings known and for that I take blame.

As for Eloise, I promised I would take her from our heartless aunt who constantly kept us under her thumb and made us feel unsafe...but once here I turned around and did the exact same thing, I kept her within arms reach, allowing her only so much freedom...same prison, different prison cell.

I hated knowing she had this amazing life that she felt like she had to keep a secret from me.

I recall the day Eloise left, I turned my full anger onto Dorian and went to seek answers.

He of course called his parents over and I laid everything out and demanded the truth, what I got was so much more.

Yes they revealed to disliking me, that they didn't think I was "suitable or qualified to be the Luna of this pack." They went on to tell me that they "tolerate" me because I "just so happened to be our sons mate."

The nerve of those insufferable people.

They only continued from there, I was told that I had come along, me a "nobody" had stepped in and interfered with a most advantageous marriage, one that was suppose to be quite lucrative for the two packs. The match was ideal in so many ways, but when Dorian found me everything they had planned out for their son and the future of this pack was thrown out the window.

I was made to feel like the worst person ever for falling in love with Dorian, that's when I found my voice.

Tears filled my eyes as the memory of that evening refilled every corner of my mind:

"You are my mate Dorian Travers and I do love you with my entire being, but that doesn't mean I have to love you right now, and until you can accept me as your life PARTNER in every way possible then I will remove myself from the picture...good luck keeping the respect of your people and your alliances when they find out that your own mate doesn't want to stand by your side."

I then turned to his parents, both because I couldn't stand to see the pain on Dorian's face and because I wanted them to have as much heartache as I had.

"I suppose you got your wish you've managed to get me out of the picture...but you should be careful what you wish for, for who is going to want a 'man' who can't keep his own mate or stand up to his parents, and IF the day comes that I do decide to forgive Dorian I will only continue a life with him so long as the two of you are no longer in it...you won't be there for our wedding, you won't know when I get marked, you will never see any children we may have, IF I forgive Dorian I will FULLY become his Luna and my first act will be to banish you from these lands."